Slow Motion

Yesterday was such a long day, it was the same amount of hours of all the previous days but somehow it felt different.  There was a heaviness in the air and often felt like life was playing out in slow motion.  I have plenty to be thankful for in my life, I wasn’t wanting for anything  in particular but I was feeling drained, and needing something but what?  God continues to bless me beyond any expectations and definitely not deserving, but I am truly thankful for the countless blessings I have received.  Lately I have been thinking that I’m getting a second chance at become the person I was created to be.  As a kid, like all kids I had dreams of what I thought I wanted to be…professional softball player, that was a long time ago and to be honest I’m not even sure there was such a thing.  It was the one thing I was completely confident about in my life.  My parents were so supportive, allowing me to play for several different teams at one time and they drove me all over the state if Indiana to play softball, it was a lot of fun!  I would have to say that I experienced pure joy all those summers ago playing a silly game.  It is good to have something that can fill your life with pure joy, recently I have been getting that feeling of pure joy, through my increased participation with my church and spending time with friends, having conversations about life, the Bible and searching for purpose, my purpose to be more direct.  Relationships within a church can be whatever you need it to be, for example you can mentor others, be someones big brother or sister, formulate study groups, form social gatherings, befriend someone in need…you get the idea. We are all God’s children and we are commanded to love one another as we love ourselves, this is also to forgive ourselves for the wrong things we’ve done, when we sincerely pray for forgiveness, we need to let it go and learn and grow from the experience.  I have been extending myself to help with several little projects because I’m learning I need the contact with others to feed me socially, academically, emotionally and most importantly biblically. I have questions, I have comments and I just want to share my faith with others.  As I continue on my journey I hope you will seek out your joy and then pursue it.