My Greatest Joy-My Deepest Sorrow

Monday, June 22, 2020

To all my friends around the world— Greetings! I want to share with you my greatest joy and my deepest sorrow. I find myself fighting back tears, a few quick blinks and the excess fluid in my eyes dissipate, avoiding the cry I desperately need. I am somewhat “fidgety” trying to avoid the inevitable memories that today and this week hold. I have felt my emotions rising and falling for several days, I am somewhat creative at pushing them aside, cluttering my life with distractions of cooking and binge watching TV. If I have learned anything over the past few years, it is that one must face the things that scare or frighten oneself. I have also learned that fear can be malignant and destructive. What might have started out as the fear of _____; overtime will expand and extend into other areas of life. Truth and honesty are the best way to travel the road called life.

“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.”― Plato

On June 22, 2012, I received a call at 3:22am from the Fountain County Ambulance Service, they told me that my mom had passed away. I remember sitting on the edge of my bed in complete shock. Questions seemed to be exploding inside my head, bombarding me like fireworks…what? why? how? ______ I remember making one phone call to a friend and then I got in my car to drive the hour and half drive to my parents home. I don’t remember any part of the drive, I only remember walking out of my house and walking into my parents house. I was met by many family members already there who greeted me with hugs and comfort. All I wanted to do was see my mom. I needed to see her for myself, my faith tells me her spirit was gone and only her body remained. I would have to wait three days before I could see her body during the funeral visitation. I miss her every single day. My father was with her during her final moments and my brother was there at the end. For the longest time I felt cheated that I was unable to see her when she died. I had seen my mother two days before her death, that memory is very special to me. I remember and can still sense her embrace that day as we said goodbye. My dad and my brother hold a very different memory, one I’m not sure I would have been strong enough to carry such a memory. My dad loved my mom and would have done anything for her, they almost made it to forty-nine years of marriage before she passed. In my opinion, my dad and my brother are the bravest people I know. The transition of life without mom has been difficult and also illuminating for all of us. We all looked up to and admired mom, life without her would be an adjustment. We are all grateful that God blessed us with her and are thankful for the time we had with her. We look forward to seeing her again in Heaven.

As I look at my life since my moms passing I am thankful for the many life lessons I learned from her. I am also sometimes saddened by the fact that there are lessons I have learned simply because she is no longer here. I know and trust in God’s plan for my life, my human/sinful/natural nature makes me sometimes wish I could have learned these specific life lessons without losing my mom. My loss is Heaven’s gain, she’s not really gone, she has simply gone to her eternity home with God.

Thank you for stopping by my post today. Life is short so LOVE 💗 MORE!

My greatest joy was being the daughter of Shirley (Peach) Robinson. My deepest sorrow was losing her much too soon.

Not Ready

The fog continues to conceal the facts and realities of life

She is still very alive and just out of reach from me

Seems that we just keep missing one another

As if she’s just a few steps away and I can’t get closer to her

Missing her as if I’ve been on a holiday or vacation

Basically feeling an overall numbness of self and environment

I regret not asking more questions and not listening more intently

She inspired me and others to be honest, strong and above all to have integrity

Missing her is tolerable thinking she’s just busy

Gone, she can’t be…I’m not ready, there’s still so much more I need


~C.A.Robinson©️

08/12/2012

7:50pm

In This Very Place

Your spirit is woven into the fabric of this very place

Every corner, every shelf reveals remnants of your special touch

Christmas gifts of long ago still adorn the walls of this sacred place

Family photos of yesteryears all with a story to tell

If only this were but a childish game running and laughing, all covered with love

I hear you in the chimes letting me know you’re near

Hummingbirds with their ease of flight…shows me the beauty and complexity of this life

As I hear the tick tock of the clocks, I can hear your laughter in the distance

Remembering the comfort and strength in your warm embrace,

Remembering your sacrifices in all you did, making life sweeter

Everything has changed, nothing feels the same, hard as I try reality continues knocking at my door

Go away, go away…Can’t you see you’re not welcome in this place.

This was hers, this was ours…wishes and dreams unfulfilled, it’s all left undone

Questions linger, the obvious one of why…it’s beyond our understanding.

Has she traveled to all the places she once dreamed of, was there a welcoming of those who had gone before?

No pain…walking and running freely, perhaps even flying or floating about.

Today as I looked in the sky, filled with billowing white clouds I paused to wonder…

Thinking to my self, and saying…can she see me, is she proud of me,

Am I doing and being the best person I can be? When will I see her again?

Mom, I miss you so very much and I love you more than I was ever able to show.
Until we meet again, you will always be in my heart, my soul…the very existence of who I am, always and forever…your daughter.

-C.A.Robinson ©️

September 19, 2012

1:23am

Be good to yourself! Be kind to one another! Share LOVE! Please practice healthy social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! 😷 May God Bless You in a special way today. Amen. 🙏🏻❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤🤍🤎💗🔆🌻

~Peace~ ειρήνη~Charlotte 🌻🙏🏻☀️

ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below. 

References:

https://biblehub.com/greek/1515.htm

Dear World—

Friday, June 19th, 2020

Matthew 5:43-48

“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be children of your Father in heaven; for he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the righteous and on the unrighteous. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers and sisters, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.”

I am a follower of Jesus Christ, I believe He is the one and only Son of God and that He died to save me. My intent is not to judge others who might believe differently, I just want to share my faith. I am a sinner and make mistakes often and my trust is in Jesus. I am far from perfect yet I continue to strive towards it. It is through the grace and mercy of God that I am forgiven. I cannot save myself or work to earn salvation, it is a free gift from God.

Ephesians 2:8-9

“For by grace you have been saved through faith, and this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God— not the result of works, so that no one may boast.”

I addressed this entry to the world, I myself am not a worldly person, I have not traveled to many places and I strive to learn about the world. I am curious and interested in the cultural practices around the globe and within my own community. My faith calls me to love others, you may think that sounds very difficult given the differences around the world and in our neighborhoods and cities. In actuality, it is much easier to love than it is to hate. Hate is a heavy burden to bear. Love is free and has no record of wrong doings. I have recently found myself overwhelmed and frustrated with the conflicts happening around the world. It is becoming increasingly more difficult to understand the actions that cause destruction and obvious disregard for personal safety, private property, unlawful actions, slander and subjective condemnation along with the seemingly total disregard of others that see things differently.

Now is the time for unity, cooperation, compassion, forgiveness. Perhaps even a time to leave the past in the past. If the past is always being brought into the present with no regard for its place in history, it will never have the chance for real change to happen and will continue its relentless cycle. I have discovered that the only way to move forward and be successful is to let go of the past and to stop looking back. The future is not in the rear view mirror. My hope is that we learn from the past, make better choices and learn from the our decisions and those of our ancestors. Mistakes have been made by everyone, no one is immune to its pains. The pain we experience should guide us to become more loving, more attentive and to be more compassionate towards others. No one person, with the except of God, has all the right answers. We must be willing to share our life experiences and not merely see our differences but more importantly see the things we agree upon. Once we solidify a firm foundation upon the things that unite us, only then can we build upon them. Recognizing that our differences are not faults, and that we all see our own side of every story more clearly than that of another’s and vice versa. This is why clear communication is so vital, being able to listen and to speak without being interrupted. I’ve noticed throughout my life that people often like the sound of their own voice and are less inclined to listen to someone else’s voice. It a battle for many of us, I certainly try to overcome this prideful distraction on a regular basis. Perhaps we ought to try and see one another as Jesus sees us, as brothers and sisters.

Matthew 12:50

“For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother.”

Webster-Merriam Dictionary: Listening

• to hear something with thoughtful attention; give consideration

• to pay attention to sound

1 Peter 3:8-12

“Finally, all of you, have unity of spirit, sympathy, love for one another, a tender heart, and a humble mind. Do not repay evil for evil or abuse for abuse; but, on the contrary, repay with a blessing. It is for this that you were called—that you might inherit a blessing. For “Those who desire life and desire to see good days, let them keep their tongues from evil and their lips from speaking deceit; let them turn away from evil and do good; let them seek peace and pursue it. For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are open to their prayer. But the face of the Lord is against those who do evil.”

Be good to yourself! Be kind to one another! Share LOVE! Please practice healthy social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! 😷 May God Bless You in a special way today. Amen. 🙏🏻❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤🤍🤎💗🔆🌻

~Peace~ ειρήνη~Charlotte 🌻🙏🏻☀️

ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below. 

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://biblehub.com/greek/1515.htm

https://uri.org/

https://uri.org/kids/world-religions

https://www.merriam-webster.com/

Weddings

Friday, June 12th, 2020

Wedding…the word itself sounds beautiful! Start adding flowers, dress apparel and music and it’s nearly impossible to put into words. I have dreamed of having a wedding since I was a very young girl. I’ll admit over the years it has taken on different styles and decorations in my mind and each of them still float around in my thoughts. I would guess many little girls dream of weddings. My life has taken me down many different paths, I have no regrets though I could have made better decisions. My past is what has molded me into the person I am today, and I have chosen to learn and grow from my past. If I were to discount or discard my past, it would eliminate the lessons I’ve learned.

Just the other day I spent some time thinking about some of the individuals I’ve dated and entered into a relationship with over the period of my adult life. I’m sure there’s a statistic somewhere about how many relationship a person might have in a lifetime, I’m not going to look because it’s irrelevant to me. For a longtime I tried living my life based upon what I admired and seen in others. It can be a roadmap for disaster, if you are not careful. We can appreciate what others do but we must find our own way in the world. I love my parents and the example they set before me, next month would have been their 57th wedding anniversary. My mom passed away just shy of their 49th anniversary. I had planned a special trip just for her and my dad as a surprise, sort of a prelude to their 50th, unfortunately they never had the opportunity to go. Longevity is a wonderful thing, it’s beautiful to see love grow and change through the years. I’ve learned it’s not the years but the moments when it comes to love. I’ve also learned that love is not the same from person to person, and that’s ok as well as being beautifully different. You know, it’s true what they say, “Beauty (love) is in the eye of the beholder.”

I may not be a little girl with dreams of a wedding but I am most definitely a woman who is still dreaming of a wedding, being a bride with a bouquet of flowers and holding the hand of my beloved. Someday, maybe…

Please click the link to view an article/photos that helped to rekindled my thoughts of weddings:

Beautiful Weddings Moments

https://beautifulweddings.com.au/

Be good to yourself! Be kind to one another! Share JOY! Please practice healthy social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! 😷 May God Bless You in a special way today. Amen. 🙏🏻

~Peace~ ειρήνη~Charlotte 🌻🙏🏻☀️

ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below. 

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://biblehub.com/greek/1515.htm

Fun Blog Award: My 10 Favorite Feelings

Friday, June 12th, 2020

I was nominated to participate in this fun blog post, it’s been a lot of fun and has provided an opportunity to share some interesting facts about myself and some of my favorite feelings! I was nominated by Blogs by J: https://blogbyj.life/ “The Experiences of Life Will Take Us in Many Directions.” This quote is on oJ’s home page. I have found J’s posts to be interesting and insightful. Please check it out.

Rules:

Simply list 10 of your favorite feelings and then pass on nominations to other bloggers!

My 10 Favorite Feelings:


1. Happiness/Awe— Walt Disney World. I don’t get to go as often as I would like but it holds many precious memories for me. I feel so relaxed, free and innocence when I’m there. I am also a huge fan of The Flintstones and have a collection of memorabilia from the 1960’s and 1970’s.


2. Love— I love, love. I love my friends and my family. I love Jesus. I love my job. I love being in love. I love to see others happy.

“Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit.”

—Khalil Gibran


3. Curiosity— I like talk about life and things…God, history, religion, politics, emotions, feelings, past, present and future. Discuss the “what if’s?” and “why’s” of life.


4. Chemistry— As it relates to people, what attracted one person to another, where we choose to work and socialize. The world and the universe are fascinating!

5. Hopeful— I seek to be optimistic most of the time. I seek to encourage others and share HOPE.

“Hope is being able to see that there is light despite of all the darkness.”

—Desmond Tutu

6. Affection — I love to love and be loved, It makes me happy! I am a very touchy, feely kind of person, I love to give hugs and receive hugs. Having friends around me helps to nurture and support my soul and spirit.


7. Sleep/Slumber— I enjoy sleeping long hours, staying up late at night and sleeping in, in the mornings. I’ve learned over time that excessive sleeping does not have to be a sign of laziness. In fact, some of us just require more restful sleep than others.


8. Confidence— This is not always an easy feeling for me, but I like how I feel when I am confident and sure of myself. For me, this means I am growing more comfortable in my own skin and being proud of the person I am becoming.


8. Learning/Awakening— I enjoy digging deeper into subjects that peak my interest and expanding my knowledge. I like reading or listening to books by C.S.Lewis, Mitch Albom, Richard Bach, Rachel Held Evans, to list a few. I enjoy theological studies of the Bible and of other sacred texts.

“When people talk, listen completely. Most people never listen.”

—Ernest Hemingway


9. Relaxation/5 Senses— Embracing the healing qualities of our five senses; touch, sight, hearing, smell and taste. I am enchanted by nature. The ebb and flow of the ocean, the musical features of a waterfall, the sweet aroma of the grass, flowers, and trees. The beauty of flames dancing on a campfire, the mystery of fireflies. Holding the hand of a beloved.


10. Competition— I grew up playing softball, started around the age of five and continued playing for over three decades. I enjoyed the sport and being part of a team. I also like to challenge myself by taking courses online to broaden my knowledge as it relates to my faith and my job. In the past I’ve taken courses about weather, management skills, computer and writing skills as well as biblical studies.

“If you want to find the real competition, just look in the mirror.”

—Unknown

In closing, this has been a lot of fun for me to do, I’ve had the opportunity to share many of my favorite things with you. Above all these things— the most important, special and sacred thing in my life is my Creator, my God, my Lord and Savior. None of my favorite things would be possible if not for my Creator.

—John 1:1-4—

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things came into being through him, and without him not one thing came into being. What has come into being in him was life, and the life was the light of all people.”

Be good to yourself! Be kind to one another! Share JOY! Please practice healthy social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! 😷 May God Bless You in a special way today. Amen. 🙏🏻

~Peace~ ειρήνη~Charlotte 🌻🙏🏻☀️

ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below. 

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://biblehub.com/greek/1515.htm

My Nominees:

Karen: https://simplysoulsearching.com/

Susie: https://susiesopinions.blog/

Sharvi: https://tipsfromsharvi.com/

Jan: https://janbeek.blog/

Wendi: https://simplychronicallyill.com/

Sunday Quotes

Sunday, June 7th, 2020

Hello friends—

Beautiful Sunset

“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.” —Rumi

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“Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world.” —Nelson Mandela

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“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.” —Leo Tolstoy

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“Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” —Mahatma Gandhi

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“Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed, citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.” —Margaret Mead

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Don’t Just—

Don’t just learn, experience.

Don’t just read, absorb.

Don’t just change, transform.

Don’t just relate, advocate.

Don’t just promise, prove.

Don’t just criticize, encourage.

Don’t just think, ponder.

Don’t just take, give.

Don’t just see, feel.

Don’t just dream, do.

Don’t just hear, listen.

Don’t just talk, act.

Don’t just tell, show.

Don’t just exist, live.

—Roy T. Bennett

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Now, you didn’t think I forgot to include a quote from C.S.Lewis, did you?

“Each day we are becoming a creature of splendid glory or one of unthinkable horror.”

—C.S Lewis, Mere Christianity—

Have a Blessed Sunday! Be good to yourself! Be kind to one another! Share LOVE! Please practice social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! 😷 May God Bless You in a special way today. Amen. 🙏🏻

~Peace~ ειρήνη~Charlotte 🌻🙏🏻☀️💛

ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below. 

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://biblehub.com/greek/1515.htm

Sharing My Joys

Saturday, June 6th, 2020

Hello all my lovely friends—

I wanted to share some photos and thoughts with you today. I like to surround myself with the things that feed my soul. I’ve got pictures of loved ones in many rooms of my home. I’ve got lots of books from some of my favorite authors; C.S.Lewis, Mitch Albom, Rachel Held Evans, Ken Blanchard, and many biblical reference books and Bibles in different translations. My walls have many positive sayings on them. I have framed some beautiful hand made cards I’ve received. I have dried flowers from my moms funeral and the prayer shawl my church blessed and gave her. These are all precious and priceless treasures to me.

How about you? Do you have things that bring you joy?

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One man’s trash is another man’s treasure. Something that one person considers worthless may be considered valuable by someone else.

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Psalm 47:1

“Clap your hands, all you peoples; shout to God with loud songs of joy.”

Psalm 16:11

“You show me the path of life. In your presence there is fullness of joy; in your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”

Psalm 30:4-5

“Sing praises to the Lord, O you his faithful ones, and give thanks to his holy name. For his anger is but for a moment; his favor is for a lifetime. Weeping may linger for the night, but joy comes with the morning.”

Press on friends, because JOY comes in the morning! ~Amen💙🙏🏻

Be good to yourself! Be kind to one another! Share JOY! Please practice healthy social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! 😷 May God Bless You in a special way today. Amen. 🙏🏻

~Peace~ ειρήνη~Charlotte 🌻🙏🏻☀️

ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below. 

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://biblehub.com/greek/1515.htm

A Bit of Wisdom by C.S.Lewis

Thursday, June 4th, 2020

Hi friends—

Just sharing some love and thoughts with you. I’m a big fan of C.S.Lewis and I wanted to share a few of his words and a video from a radio show relating to “right & wrong” the Moral Law. No big secret, I’m a sinner…we are all sinners. I am not more important than you, I am as important as you. We are all God’s children, life is not (should not) be a competition against one another for the survival of the fittest. We are all travelers on this planet called earth. The journey will always be lighter when you’re not traveling alone. Injustices are committed every day and present in all walks of life, on every continent on earth AND that does not make it right, merely a fact. Real change is possible, real change comes when we are constantly and consistently learning, growing, and helping one another through communication and compassion. We must be able to extend grace and forgiveness as God extends to us. I support all individuals who choose to march and assemble in peaceful protests. I applaud those who become more active in the pursuit of real change by finding ways to work and get involved with local communities and local government. They work to elect officials to improve their communities. They become active by attending local public government meetings, and they work with local churches, schools and law enforcement agencies. We can do this together!

“Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” —Mahatma Gandhi

“When the police arrived and found no lion, no broken wall, and no convicts, and the Head behaving like a lunatic, there was an inquiry into the whole thing. And in the inquiry all sorts of things about Experiment House came out, and about ten people got expelled. After that, the Head’s friends saw that the Head was no use as a Head, so they got her made an Inspector to interfere with other Heads. And when they found she wasn’t much good even at that, they got her into Parliament where she lived happily ever after.”

—“Chronicles of Narnia” by C. S. Lewis

The video below is titled, “Right & Wrong – A Clue to the Meaning of the Universe” by C.S.Lewis.

Be good to yourself! Be kind to one another! Please practice healthy social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! 😷 May God Bless You in a special way today. Amen. 🙏🏻

~Peace~ ειρήνη~Charlotte 🌻🙏🏻☀️

ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below. 

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://biblehub.com/greek/1515.htm

US

https://www.youtube.com/user/CSLewisDoodle

Love Conquers All

Tuesday, June 2, 2020

“We are what we believe we are.”

~C.S.Lewis~

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“God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”

~C.S.Lewis~

1 Corinthians 13:4

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“Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude.”

1 John 4:19

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“We love because he first loved us.”

1 Peter 4:8

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“Above all, maintain constant love for one another, for love covers a multitude of sins.”

Be good to yourself, be kind and please continue to practice healthy social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! 😷 May God Bless You in a special way today. Amen. 🙏🏻

~Peace~ ειρήνη~Charlotte 🌻🙏🏻☀️

ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below. 

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://biblehub.com/greek/1515.htm

A Bit of Wisdom by C.S.Lewis

Wednesday, June 3rd, 2020

Dearest friends and followers—

My heart hurts for many reasons these past few days, I will not list them one by one, I pray them to my Father in Heaven. We are all His children, He has no favorites. What a wonderful example of love. At the end of each day we all must answer for the things we have said and done. Tomorrow is the chance to do better.

“[E]very time you make a choice you are turning into the central part of you, the part of you that chooses, into something a little different than it was before. And taking your life as a whole, with all your innumerable choices, all your life long you are slowly turning this central thing into a heavenly creature or a hellish creature: either into a creature that is in harmony with God, and with other creatures, and with itself, or else into one that is in a state of war and hatred with God, and with its fellow creatures, and with itself. To be the one kind of creature is heaven: that is, it is joy and peace and knowledge and power. To be the other means madness, horror, idiocy, rage, impotence, and eternal loneliness. Each of us at each moment is progressing to the one state or the other.” ~C. S. Lewis

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“Be not proud of race, face, place, or grace.”

—Charles Spurgeon

“All human beings bear God’s image and must be respected for what each person is. Therefore, no external description of one’s being, whether based on race, ethnicity, gender or sexual orientation, can properly be used as the basis for either rejection or discrimination.”

—Bishop John Shelby Spong

John 13:34

“I give you a new commandment, that you love one another. Just as I have loved you, you also should love one another.”

Be good to yourself, be kind and please continue to practice healthy social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! 😷 May God Bless You in a special way today. Amen. 🙏🏻

~Peace~ ειρήνη~Charlotte 🌻🙏🏻☀️

ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below. 

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://biblehub.com/greek/1515.htm