Memory Lane, Moving Forward

A story of three strangers who met a long time ago…

Friends-

It’s been awhile since I’ve written so I wanted to share with you some of my birthday experiences. I’m happy to share that I celebrated my birthday on July 30th! My first “shout out” goes to God! God is so good, God is always GOOD! I am so blessed to have so many loving and caring individuals in my life and I thank each one for making this year’s birthday celebration so memorable and fun!

First off, I had dinner with several friends from my church at one of my favorite restaurants. We shared in a great meal and some awesome cheesecake (birthday cake). Then, I was able to attend a minor league baseball game and pre-game party with all you could eat/drink for free! All with a great group of people who work on keeping the environment safe for everyone along with family and close friends. And today, I traveled to the Chicago area to visit two very special people in my life. I’ve known these individuals for more than three decades and I just love them! Several years have passed since we’ve seen one another face to face but they have always remained in my heart. We met the first year I started college, and well I guess one could say they rest is history. But, it’s more than that! I’ve probably never adequately or appropriately told them just how thankful I am to be friends with them! And, do you know what the best part of our friendship is…truth! I can say that now, after all these years and it’s the foundation of our friendship, they have never had any pretenses of who they are or who I am. I love that! They are very near the top of the list of people I’ve known the longest in my life and with whom I completely trust. Looking back I can now see the artistry of God working in our lives, God working through the years and even today with bringing us together. My heart is filled with happiness!

Memory Lane, Moving Forward
A story of three strangers who met a long time ago…
As the sea washes the shore line sand clean with its ebb and flow
So did the decades of time and space evaporate when we met again face to face
Friendship never lost through the years only paused from time to time
Life, kids, jobs, school, college, travel, weddings, family, just things and stuff
Never forgotten, always close at heart, closer still in prayers
Friends connected at the heart are never far away
Conversations, experiences, sharing laughs things that time doesn’t change 
Closeness and connectivity are not bound by proximity, matters of the heart are limitless 
Friendship as full and fresh as the day it started so many years ago a blessing then, a bigger blessing now 
Memories come flooding back and new ones made they all warm the heart
Looking back it seems so long and short like a blink of the eye
Meeting you, becoming friends has forever changed my life, our lives will continue to change and grow through the years, our friendship is a priceless treasure that only grows in value as the years pass by.  
~C.A.Robinson ©️
   07/31/2019 11pm

As the sea washes the shore line sand clean with its ebb and flow

So did the decades of time and space evaporate when we met again face to face

Friendship never lost through the years only paused from time to time

Life, kids, jobs, school, college, travel, weddings, family, just things and stuff

Never forgotten, always close at heart, closer still in prayers

Friends connected at the heart are never far away

Conversations, experiences, sharing laughs things that time doesn’t change

Closeness and connectivity are not bound by proximity matters of the heart are limitless

Friendship as full and fresh as the day it started so many years ago a blessing then, a bigger blessing now

Memories come flooding back and new ones made they all warm the heart

Looking back it seems so long and short like a blink of the eye

Meeting you, becoming friends has forever changed my life, our lives will continue to change and grow through the years, our friendship is a priceless treasure that only grows in value as the years pass by.

~C.A.Robinson ©️

07/31/2019 11pm

“Some friends play at friendship but a true friend sticks closer than one’s nearest kin.” -Proverbs 18:24

“Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up the other; but woe to one who is alone and falls and does not have another to help.” -Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

A friend loves at all times, and kinsfolk are born to share adversity.” -Proverbs 17:17

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

 

 

Living Your Best Life

Every day is a gift, not any gift but a precious gift from God.

“In the presence of God, who gives life to all things…” -1 Timothy 6:13

“The God who made the world and everything in it, he who is Lord of heaven and earth, does not live in shrines made by human hands, nor is he served by human hands, as though he needed anything, since he himself gives to all mortals life and breath and all things.” -Acts 17:24-25

Friends-

It’s quite easy to say the words that every day is a gift from God. It’s equally just as easy to tell others that every day is a gift from God. The challenge for the speaker of these words is to believe for themselves. And even more so, it takes courage to be authentic in accepting the truth of the statement, that each and every day is a precious gift from God. When we are authentically true to ourselves, we can say with clarity that “yes” today is a gift from God and I struggle with life. Both can be true at the same time. God is not asking for perfection and sinlessness, we are born sinful and imperfect. His love is not dependent on any thing we can do or offer. God’s love is unconditional, period!

Living Your Best Life!

What does that even mean?  To me, the understanding of this statement is to be true to my beliefs and my values in accordance with my convictions from the Holy Spirit and that I strive to live my life in a manner pleasing to God.  Sounds easy, right?

Life often throws us curve balls, it has bumps in the road and more than once we will find ourselves staring at a crossroad, not knowing for sure where a given road might take us. It’s called the future and it can be exciting, scary, stressful, joyful and adventurous. Some of us go boldly charging carelessly into the future, while others of us can be timid and very cautious, even skeptical. No matter where you may fit into this vast spectrum, the two things that matter most are: 1.) Keep moving forward; 2.) Be “YOU” authentic to who you are. I used a quote the other day and just like this blog post, I believe it with 100% of my being…BUT, living it authentically is at times a struggle.

Just the other day, I told someone that I felt broken. Clearly, if I believe this quote by Maya Angelou, I should never feel like I’m broken, worse yet it sounds like I’m accusing God of making a mistake. A better descriptive and authentic statement would have been to say that, “I’m struggling with insecurities, I question my purpose, I create unrealistic scenarios of life, all this and more because I allow my imagined fears to compromise my authenticity and I give my courage away.

Moving forward from this is not easy, it can and will most likely be unpleasant and uncomfortable, but aren’t most things that truly matter(?).

Whatever is keeping you from being completely you, authentic you is so worth discovering and conquering. The things that hinder our growth and the purest form of ourselves was most likely developed over time and the same is true in conquering it.  So be kind to yourself and accept God’s grace. With each sunrise comes a new day to start new, renewed by the forgiveness given to us freely by Christ. You are so very loved.

One last thing, if you are anything like me…I seem to apologize for a lot of things, even things I haven’t done because at some point in my life, the true lines of responsibilities, ownership, shame and blame became blurred. Definitely apologize when it’s appropriate but be honest and straightforward about what you’re apologizing for. Over time “sorry” begins to sound a lot like, the boy who cried wolf, one too many times.

You are too valuable for that to happen, let your words be truth, let your sorry’s be true and sincere, and let you love be pure and free.

 

My prayer for us;

O Holy God, thank you for your love, your compassion and your forgiveness. I thank you for strength and growth that I have gained through the struggles I’ve endured, You are the One True God, the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. I pray for the individual reading these words, not my words but the words that the Holy Spirit placed upon my heart to share, may your Spirit intercede with them and may they feel your presence within their being. I pray for healing if that is their need, whether it be spiritual healing, physical healing or emotional healing nothing is beyond your power. I pray the eyes of their soul be open to you and your will in their life. Be with us wherever we are around the world, praise be that you are always with us, we are never alone. I ask all these things in the name of Jesus, Amen! Peace to you!

~Peace~

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://www.christiancourier.com/articles/1507-life-a-precious-gift

http://www.read.gov/aesop/043.html

 

 

 

A Child’s Wish

Hello friends –

Below is a poem I wrote nearly ten years ago and I wanted to share it with you today. I have learned and grown over the past ten years and in many ways this poem has helped me along my journey. When I read it, it plays in my mind as a video, most always in black and white. I have found some pictures online I am going to include that are similar to the visions in my mind. I have referenced the ownership of them below since they are not my handiwork. My struggles in life are not so different from life experiences of others, meaning no one persons experiences rivals another, we all have them just in a wide variety of places and degrees. I am no more or less special than you are, we are all special. We are all individuals and yet we are all part of human existence. We all have emotions and ownership of them. More importantly, we are created and born with a purpose and a plan. Too often we allow ourselves to concentrate on the things we lack instead of the things we have. We are people made for community and togetherness, life was never meant to be traveled alone. We need brotherhood not dominance. We need more love and respect, less violence and pain.

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid.” -John 14:27

May the Peace of God be with you always!

“Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in all ways. The Lord be with all of you.” -2 Thessalonians 3:16

~Peace~

A Child’s Wish

I look at you and I just want to pick you up, put my arms around you

Squeeze you and tell you everything is alright, tell you that you are safe

Caress you hair and sing you a lullaby, while gently rocking you

I want to whisper sweetly “I love you” and tell you I will protect you from the dark

You are scared of so many things, all the while trying to be a superhero, too

Slow down;

Take a deep breath, the world will not stop if you slow down

As a child and during my youth and even sometimes still

I would often wish for someone just like me

Someone to play catch with

Someone to talk with

Someone who understood me

Someone who really knew me

As I sit here now, knowing what I now know about myself

I have been wishing and dreaming

Pursuing my own reflection

The child I saw scared and alone,

It was me

There are so many things that I keep myself from doing, because inside

I’m that scared child

How can I reach her

How can I heal her…

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I just want to pick her up and put my arms around her

Squeeze her and tell her everything is alright,

Say to her, you are safe now

I want to caress her hair and sing a lullaby and rock her gently

I want to whisper “you are loved” and I will stay with her in the dark

I want to tell her being a kid is the best fun ever and that I will be her superhero

I want to take her by the hand…walk, run and skip through life with her.

-Charlotte A. Robinson

 October 7, 2010

 2:12pm©️

*Updated 06/27/2019 3:51am©️

References:

https://www.paigeeworld.com/post/59043e942c586aeb0ecf3ee1/swings-alone-girl–semirealism-drawing-by-catsmeow43

https://paintingvalley.com/mother-and-daughter-drawing

https://www.pinterest.com/

https://nerdybookclub.wordpress.com/

https://www.biblegateway.com/

Patience and Waiting

What is something you find hard to do?

Mine is waiting, well it’s actually patience and waiting…that’s at least two things I find hard to do! Haha!

According to Merriam-Webster: Waiting

• to stay in place in expectation of

• to remain stationary in readiness 

• to remain in expectation

to pause for another to catch up

to look forward expectantly

to hold back expectantly

to be ready and available

to remain temporarily neglected

• to remain unrealized

According to Merriam-Webster: Patience

the capacity, habit, or fact of being patient

The Bible tells us a lot about waiting and patience. *See link below for more references.

“For there is still a vision for the appointed time; it speaks of the end, and does not lie. If it seems to tarry, wait for it; it will surely come, it will not delay.” -Habakkuk 2:3

“But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.” -Romans 8:25

“…so that you are not lacking in any spiritual gift as you wait for the revealing of our Lord Jesus Christ.” -1 Corinthians 1:7

“Do not worry about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” -Philippians 4:6

“Rejoice in hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in prayer.” -Romans 12:12

“…but those who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.” “Isaiah 40:31

“Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, so that he may exalt you in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you.” -1 Peter 5:6-7

I read something about patience a couple of days ago and it’s been on my mind ever since. I like to think I have a lot of patience, this may be true in some areas in my life but I definitely struggle with waiting and having patience from time to time. I am more aware of the abundance or lack of it now in my life than ever before. For example, traffic usually doesn’t bother me much unless I’m in a hurry or running late; bad serve in a restaurant, I tend to put myself in the servers shoes and think maybe they are having a tough day. When I’m excited to do something I have a tendency to overwhelm. I think I’m being patient and I think I’m being “cool.” Truth is my patience is disproportionate to real time. I have friends that I joke with and describe myself as going from A to Z, quickly. The problem with that is I miss all the stuff in between that brings depth and meaning. This can also be called “putting the cart before the horse” and other like metaphors. There’s many reasons people tend to quantum leap through things…learned behavior, this is what was learned over a period of time usually with similar results; fear of the unknown which is also a learned behavioral response typically from actual experience. It the feeling of, “I know how this ends, so let’s just get it over with and move on.” And sometimes it’s just, unfamiliar and uncomfortable and your just a little unsure or possibly scared… Let’s be honest, those feelings are all part of what makes us human, they can be empowering when we face them and see where the roads take us. Imagination is a wonderful thing but it’s a poor substitute for real, reality. Take hold of opportunities, when you find yourself racing through something for the sake of getting it over with (or) through it…ask yourself “why?” Try giving yourself the gift of patience, the gift of waiting, the gift of the experience and all the little surprises along the way. Life is a journey, not a destination. Above all, trust in God, seek His will in your life and where He leads you.

“The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul that seeks him.” -Lamentations 3:25

“Patience is not quite the same as waiting. While waiting is something we do, patience is something we offer. We wait because we must — we have little choice in the matter. But patience is our gift to our Father while we wait. In the silence, in the waiting, patience chooses to declare, “Lord, I love you. I know I don’t love you as I ought, but I want to love you more than your answer to my prayers. I will try to offer you my patient heart as long as you ask me to wait on this.”

What is patience? Patience looks like perseverance.”

—Jani Ortlund

According to Merriam-Webster: Perseverance

continued effort to do or achieve something despite difficulties, failure, or opposition 

• the action or condition or an instance  of persevering

Friends, may you have peace in you waiting, hope in you patience, faith in your perseverance as well as forgiveness and understanding in your zeal.

~Peace~

References:

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/dictionary

https://www.openbible.info/topics/waiting

https://www.openbible.info/topics/patience

https://www.biblegateway.com/

 

 

God’s Time is Always Best

This past week I was able to reconnect with a friend I had not seen in over two decades. We had been coworkers and friends back in the early ’90’s and our lives for no particular reason went in different directions. We both took different jobs, pursued life changing relationships and lived in different cities and states. During the past couple of years we were able to reconnected on social media and had tentatively planned to meet about a year ago but circumstances caused a delay. That all changed this past week, we were finally able to meet face to face for dinner and attend a music concert. We enjoyed quiet conversation over dinner and shared in the events of the past two decades in a condensed, very condensed cliff-note version of what had transpired in our lives. Obviously, we could not hit all the high points or even the low ones. I didn’t want the time to end, I wanted to hear and share as much as possible. The time for the concert came quickly it seemed and that kind of environment does not lend itself to conversation but it was a great experience. My friend had never seen this artist in concert before which made it that much more exciting. We had a blast! We both had obligations to get to after the concert but we are hoping to plan to meet up again sometime soon. I had a two plus hour drive after the concert which left me with a lot of thinking time. I found myself thinking of our friendship way back when it started and trying to remember the last time we actually saw one another and the past conversations we had shared. Those were all great memories and as great as they are, I certainly can’t allow myself to think in the past tense. I’m so hoping to get to know my friend as she is now, we both have experienced many things over the years and each experience and event has molded us into the individuals we are today. And although I am very biased, we both are doing pretty darn well and striving to live as authentic as possible.

I had shared parts of this story with another friend and she made a comment that brought me much joy, “it’s good that we can still experience “first’s” in life. Referencing my friends first concert. I thought about that for a long time and she’s right, as we go through life it can be easy to think of all the things that we will never experience again as a “first.” But there’s so much more to life than keeping count. Don’t get me wrong, remembering first’s can be very satisfying, like your first love, first plane ride, first date, first car, first house, first job, first trophy, the list is endless. What’s even more important is to know that every day is a new day, a chance for another first…take today for example it’s the first Sunday of my life that is recorded as 06/23/2019. It may seem silly to you to think of this as a first and I’m ok with that. What I really want you to know is, never give up or give into what the world or others might tell you to believe. Every day is a blessing from God and is an opportunity to share the love of Jesus with someone who doesn’t know him, for the first time, it’s an opportunity to show kindness to someone, in need of kindness for the first time, it’s an opportunity get to know someone new or again for the first time, and in regard to my friend, it’s an opportunity to get to know who she is now for the first time.

Firsts are best because they are beginnings.

-Jenny Han

Most of life’s big steps require a certain muddling through, a trusting that no one really knows the magical formula for the big firsts in life.

-Cusi Cram

-Lamentations 3:22-26

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to a new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same.

-Flavia Weedn
~Peace~

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

http://goodreads.com/

PhD-level Christianity-What Is That?

Hello friends~

I recently read an article, the title caught my eye, rather the spirit opened my eyes to it! I found the information rather intriguing and insightful, my hope is you too might find something useful for you.

I will include a link below for the article as well as list the twenty resolutions below.

Resolved: 20 Decisions for Surviving the Church with Your Faith Intact

JUNE 12, 2018 BY JAYSON D. BRADLEY

Resolution #1: I will not confuse discernment and judgment. I refuse to devalue anyone based on my convictions or preferences.

“And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment, so that you may approve what is excellent, and so be pure and blameless for the day of Christ.”—Philippians 1:9–10

Resolution #2: I will not shy away from being the dissenting voice to keep the peace. The majority opinion is not necessarily the right opinion, and I won’t be shamed into silence.

We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ.”—2 Corinthians 10:5

Resolution #3: I will not meddle in the lives of others where there is no relationship and invitation.

If you suffer, it should not be as a murderer or thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a meddler.” 1 Peter 4:15

Resolution #4: I will not focus on outward behavior over inward transformation — in myself or others.

First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.”—Matthew 23:26

Resolution #5: I will not make conformity, theological or otherwise, a prerequisite for community.

Therefore welcome one another as Christ has welcomed you, for the glory of God.” Romans 15:7

Resolution #6: I will not exalt any theological principle or duty above love.

The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.“—Galatians 5:6b

Resolution #7: I will not penalize others for being honest and transparent.

Therefore, having put away falsehood, let each one of you speak the truth with his neighbor, for we are members one of another.” — Ephesians 4:25

Resolution #8: I will not conflate Christianity and nationalism.

Behold, the nations are like a drop from a bucket, And are regarded as a speck of dust on the scales . . .” — Isaiah 40:15

Resolution #9: I will not behave as if truth only exists in my denominational or interpretive cul-de-sac.

For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus Christ and him crucified.”—1 Corinthians 2:2

Resolution #10: I will not confuse forgiveness and trust.

Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.”—Colossians 3:13

Resolution #11: I will not treat people as stereotypes.

For he is our peace; in his flesh he has made both groups into one and has broken down the dividing wall, that is, the hostility between us.”—Ephesians 2:14

Resolution #12: I will not shy away from difficult questions or apologize for my doubts.

Lord, I believe; help thou my unbelief.”—Mark 9:24

Resolution #13 I will not cultivate a theology that ignores the experience of Christians around the world.

We are no longer to be children, tossed here and there by waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, by craftiness in deceitful scheming.”—Ephesians 4:14

Resolution #14: I will not get embroiled in arguments that reduce complexities into simple black and white issues.

“’For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,’ declares the Lord.”—Isaiah 55:8

Resolution #15: I will not serve or do good for recognition. Whenever possible, I will practice spiritual and benevolent behavior in secret.

Be careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.“—Matthew 6:1

Resolution #16: I will not demand that Scripture conforms to the theological framework I’ve already embraced.

And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.“–John 8:32

Resolution #17: I will not succumb to a treadmill of perfectionism, or expect it from others.

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.“—2 Corinthians 12:9

Resolution #18: I will not demand that the culture around me conforms to my ideals.

What business is it of mine to judge those outside the church? Are you not to judge those inside?“—1 Corinthians 5:12

Resolution #19: I will not idealize the past or fear the future.

“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what I is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”—2 Corinthians 4:18

Resolution #20: I will not promote the idea that Christian community exists for the civilized and dignified.

Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth.” –1 Corinthians 1:26-30

~Peace~

References:

https://www.patheos.com/blogs/jaysondbradley/2018/06/surviving-church/

One Day At A Time•Meets •The Golden Girls•Meets•The Facts of Life

Shalom and Peace to you~

Monday was both long and frustrating for me and my family. We found out late in the afternoon that my dad may need to continue his physical therapy in a medical facility inside of going home. We are all disappointed but also appreciate the honest assessment of the situation. My dad is in good spirits and wants to do what’s recommended for his continued health and independence. He’s also evangelizing and reading his bible daily. What a witness for the Lord! The nursing staff and medical assistance all rave about how much they love him! And it just comes right out and ask, “Do you go to Church?” and “Are you saved?” What a blessing to have a faithful father and more importantly a faithful follower of Jesus! They love him so much in the hospital that on his whiteboard in his room under plan to go home says, “Never, because we love you!”

How awesome is that! Our family could not ask for any better treatment and care than what St. Vincent-Williamsport Hospital has provided. They have been such a blessing! So, the plan is to meet with his physician in the morning and make a decision/plan for the next couple of weeks. As you might imagine there’s an endless list of questions and decisions that must be made and many of them are necessary but difficult. It’s hard to grasp the magnitude of parents aging and accepting the reality of life and death. For those who know me and follow my blog, I’ve written about losing my mother in 2012, it was a shock to all of us and we were completely unprepared. I’m finding that there’s a lot of legal issues with the elderly as they require more assistance and rely on Medicare and Medicaid for services. While I understand some of the logic, there is little that is fair for all. Our wish and hope is for dad to come home and live out the rest of his life surrounded by memories in the home he made with his beloved family.

I am staying in my dads home, the home I grew up in and was drawn to write this while watching one of my favorite sitcoms, “The Golden Girls.” I hope I’m lucky enough to have such faithful, fun loving individuals around me as I continue to age. Those four women, unique and independent in their own ways our a source of strength and stability for one another no matter what happens. The other sitcom I’m reminded of it, “One Day At a Time” the original and the recent reboot on Netflix. Life has a tendency to throw you curveballs and you have to be flexible and willing to bend with the wind, so to speak. Then, there’s “The Facts of Life.” What a great show about adolescences and challenges of growing up and gaining independence. Anyways, those are a few of my favorites. Along with all these shows I also had constant family support and positive role models in my life growing up and I do not take that fir granted. I’m thankful for being exposed to the love of Jesus at a very young age and for being given opportunities to pursue my faith. My parents did not push religion upon my brother and me growing up but they ensured we were exposed to it and that provided us with values, standards and character growing up. I’m so proud of my brother and his accomplishments, and I’m also proud of my niece and nephew as well. Family is very important and precious, and family is anyone who adds value to your life! The Bible tells us many things about family and who is our family…

The Bible is clear about creation, one of my favorite passages is found in John 1:1-4, “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things came into being through him, and without him not one thing came into being. What has come into being in him was life, and the life was the light of all people.” (NRSV)

The Bible also has these references:

“So God created humankind in his image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.” ~Genesis 1:27 (NRSV)

“He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation; for in him all things in heaven and on earth were created, things visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or powers—all things have been created through him and for him. He himself is before all things, and in him all things hold together.” ~Colossians 1:15-17 (NRSV)

“Indeed, even though there may be so-called gods in heaven or on earth—as in fact there are many gods and many lords— yet for us there is one God, the Father, from whom are all things and for whom we exist, and one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom are all things and through whom we exist.” ~1 Corinthians 8:5-6 (NRSV)

In my heart and mind, it is (my) belief that we are all God’s children and are created/born with a purpose and a plan. This thought process and belief may not be in complete agreement with yours and that’s ok. There are passages in the Bible that state that we, as believers (those accepting that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and sacrificed himself for us) are called, “the children of God.”

“But to all who received him, who believed in his name, he gave power to become children of God, who were born, not of blood or of the will of the flesh or of the will of man, but of God.” ~John 1:12-13 (NRSV)

“This is how we know who the children of God are and who the children of the devil are: Anyone who does not do what is right is not God’s child, nor is anyone who does not love their brother and sister.” ~1 John 3:10 (NIV)

I think both statement about who are called “the children of God” whether by creation or by accepting Christ as Savior, can be true and have separate meanings. I wish to offend no one and absolutely do not want to try and persuade you into thinking otherwise as I am not a biblical scholar, I am simply sharing my thoughts. Just as I’m sure not everyone accepts my favorite TV sitcoms as wholesome and positive christian values of its characters. I simply try and glean as much as I can from the characters and their roles. One can see the Hand of God in all things, if they choose to. I like these quotes by Helen Keller…

Today, which is Tuesday, is proving to be another long and frustrating day and I’m thankful to be a part of it. My dad is continuing to improve and I have enjoyed spending the morning with him. Though some of our time was spent in silence, it’s never really quiet because my thoughts are of him and all the things I love about him. We talked about the past and the future, laughed about our life experiences and shared in precious memories of mom, mostly thankful hearts for the time we have together. Sometimes no words are necessary in conveying one’s feelings.

As today comes to a close, a lot has happened since starting my day and this post. My father was discharged from the hospital and admitted to a nursing/rehabilitation center. The plan is short term, only a week or two and then hopefully he can return home and be as independent as possible in his own home. I think dad took the transition better than my brother and I did, he is so positive and upbeat. He even started his physical therapy today and bravely ate his dinner in the main dining hall instead of in his room. I could not be prouder to have him as my dad, I hope I can age with the grace and independence that he is. My brother came to see and sit with dad after he had worked all day, so I could leave and take care of other things. I’m so thankful for his commitment to dad and for the father/son relationship they have. They are so much alike, they both have generous spirits and true kindness for helping others. I like to think that mom is somehow looking down from heaven with joy as she sees the man her son as grown into and sees the depth of dads love for family and God!

The best way I know how to close this is to simple encourage everyone to daily trust in God, living one day at a time and may all your days be golden.

~Peace~

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.compellingtruth.org/amp/all-God-children.html

On Our Best Day & Our Worst Day

 

Every day of our lives no matter what is happening; we have, in my opinion, three things: God, Heart and Soul. True, we also need air, food and water all of which are provided by God. There is nothing without God, no me, no air, no food, no heart and no soul.

“I am the vine, you are the branches. Those who abide in me and I in them bear much fruit, because apart from me you can do nothing.” -John 15:5

These past few weeks have been challenging for me on many fronts. My job offers a multitude of difficulties which are often more created from reaction than being proactive. I have been trying to better prepare myself for unpleasant situations and training my brain to engage before my mouth! I’m a work in progress and I’m thankful for God’s grace and forgiveness. My father has been in the hospital for the past couple of weeks, he gave us all quite a scare but the Lord has blessed us with great health care workers and my dad is slowly regaining his strength and his health is improving. My brother has been such a source of strength and support throughout this process. He has jumped in and helped with maintaining dad’s house and yard as well as visiting him nearly every day while dad is in the hospital. Not that this wasn’t enough, I have a health concern if my own. It may be nothing, it may be something, only way to find out is to see the doctor, which I am going to do. No need to worry, I remind myself of this fact often. This conditional world does that to us, creeps into our psyche and causes us to doubt ourselves and our God. I can say with confidence that I trust God and His Plan, and with that comes His timing as well!

I think the most frustrating thing about all of these things going on in my life is finding balance. We each find balance in a variety of ways and I am not in any position to promote one over another, I can only offer up what I’ve tried and what works for me. I know myself well enough that when I allow myself to be “spent” I totally go into “shutdown” mode. I definitely do not recommend allowing yourself to be completely drained, our bodies are not designed for such abuse. Everything in moderation. Eating well, resting, recreation and work, they are all important and necessary. Along with these things is spiritual wellness, in my opinion is the KEY to living a well balanced life. Spending time with God is as important as breathing. I have thought about this particular area a lot, God is not and should never be an after thought. We are nothing without God. Our very existence is because God created us and He loves us. I have learned and continually remind myself that God wants to be included and a part of every aspect of our lives. He wants to share our joys, our sorrows, our ups and downs, our embarrassing moments and our crowning glory moments. There’s nothing so bad that God would not want to be by your side.

So, what to do when frustrations mount and you feel like your in the spin cycle of a washing machine? In order to find balance it’s important to know one’s limitations. Taking control of the things we have control over and recognizing things we do not control and asking for God’s help in our concerns. Take it from me, you are not invincible. I have tried for years to convince myself and those around me that I am able to handle everything. Obviously, I was wrong and I was fooling no one including myself and causing more harm by lying about it. Why is it that some of us think we have to be “superhuman?” Where do we even learn that concept? If you’re like me, I would never expect anyone to do or handle the things that I try to make myself deal with…it’s a crazy thing to even think of, so why in the world would I expect it from myself. *The day I realized this, was day one of my healing process. Recently, I took a honest and full inventory of the things I’m trying to do, juggle would be a better word. I have to make some hard decisions for myself and I know they are for the best but I still feel like I’m letting others and myself down to a small degree. I’ve decided to cut back on some volunteer work that I’m doing, though it brings me enormous joy it is also a sacrifice of my time that is running very thin these days and I need to take care of myself in the same manner in which I want others to do for themselves. My new outlook tells me this is healthy and is a good thing. The old me would have been judgmental and criticizing of not being good enough or strong enough and just plain NOT ENOUGH. The truth is, I am enough and the decisions and choices I’m making are not selfish for myself or to others. It’s being kind and considerate of both. The grace we extent to others is equally deserving to ourselves. God loves us, not our attributes, skills and abilities. Our value is within us, not what we can or cannot do. Remember, “But God proves his love for us in that while we still were sinners Christ died for us.” ~Romans 5:8

Below I have included a poem I wrote a few years ago before I found balance but as I look at the words today, I can see glimpses of truth trying to shine through my words, I just wasn’t ready to fully see the path in front of me.

Heart and Soul

Cold and scared where will I find refuge

Bleeding within myself, beaten, battered and bruised

My chest aches with the weight of the world upon me

Will I see the Light, will I ever feel again

My tears offer no release, I’m chained twisted and torn

I want to scream but who would hear my cries

God are you there, I need to know am I worthy

I’ve never been this lost before, where is home

I feel so full of emptiness, why do I even have a heart

My heart is a battlefield colored with darkness

Will my sorrow continue, what more will fall or go away

I am the infant that nothing will soothe my cries

I am the tree on a lonely plain, no shelter no leaves

I’m a single blade of grass on a concrete yard

How did I get here , who am I, why does it matter

When did I know, what purpose do I have

Talk to me, I am searching, is that my purpose

Crawling and scraping where am I to go

Can I be true to you and to me,

simultaneously

Show me the way home…

~C.A.Robinson ©️

March 26, 2013

2:53am

May you always find your way to God, no matter what kind of day you are experiencing.

~Peace~

References/Recommendations:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://www.openbible.info/topics/i_will_never_leave_you_nor_forsake_you

“The Screwtape Letters” by C.S.Lewis

Below are some verses that will encourage you and tell you of God’s promises:

Deuteronomy 31:6

Deuteronomy 31:8

Joshua 1:5

Joshua 1:9

Isaiah 41:10-13

Matthew 28:20

John 14:1-31

Hebrews 13:5-6

Philippians 4:6-7

Skin and Truth

Hello friends-

Here’s a poem from several years ago, hope you like it.

Years of stretching

and pulling

Endless tossing

and turning

All the questions,

doubts and

complete denial

Seeking and searching

for your approval

Feeling alone, rejected,

an outcast

Looking for understanding

and acceptance

Your face was blank,

nothing, a void

Running and hiding…

I thought from you?

I did not fit!

Out of Style!

Out of date?

The years have made

you soften

The roughness of

your edges are slowly

disappearing

Truth, it finally came to me…

The most unexpected of

places

-Within me-

Not my reflection in a mirror

Not an action or expression

-My heart, my very soul-

I had not accepted me

My obstacle in life has

begun to fade.

-C.A.Robinson

 05/13/07

12:05am

Growth, Prayers Answered

Hello dear friends

I’ve been spending time reading some of my writing from over the years and wanted to share some with you. My hope is that it might resonate with someone else and help promote healing and recognition of the power of God. Without God, I am nothing! As I read this particular writing and the corresponding date it was written, it reminded me of just how far God has brought me. I was still struggling with the loss of my mother and though I didn’t truly acknowledge it at the time, I needed to find myself and to figure out what I wanted in this life. I was still struggling with being alone after a nine year relationship and found it hard to let go and move forward. I caused myself a lot of frustration, directly due to my stubbornness. The other huge factor during all this was I kept God at a distance. Foolishly thinking I could handle life on my own. Through the years I have learned that God doesn’t make things just disappear from our lives, He walks with us through life and all it’s road bumps. He truly is a friend to sinners. I’m proud to call him friend, He’s my life Savior! The past few years have not always be easy or burden free but it has been so worth it, knowing that I am a stronger person, a more accepting person, a better human being, a more devoted and thankful Christian, trusting God with my life. And the best news of all, it’s all available to you as well. It makes no difference who you are or where you’re from…God loves you and wants to be your God! Trust Him!

 

A special thank you to my friends who stood by me through thick and thin; thank you for renewed friendship that I was sure I had ruined beyond repair due to my inability to be honest about myself years ago; thank you to a new friend that has become so special to me, you are my mentor, teacher, friend and spiritual guide and pure joy to share life experiences with; to friendships that have remained strong throughout my life with grace, patience and forgiveness, thank you. I’m tempted to list their names but I’m fearful I would miss someone and would feel awful for that.

A very special thank you to my church and church family. You have loved me unconditionally and I consider myself family to each and every one of you!

💙✝️🙏🏻💜

August 31, 2013 2:30 PM

“As I sit here typing letters to this page, forming words to describe the feelings I have pinned up in my head, my very soul is agitated, feelings are bouncing around in my head, is that supposed to happen? I’m angry but failing to understand why? When this day started I was focused and driven, by mid-afternoon I became a woman possessed…loud, negative and condescending, it was as if I lost total control of who I am.  I did not recognize the person I became,  a stranger in my body acting absurd and foolish.  I believe I actual had a temper- tantrum, seriously at my age.  Could all this anger come from being afraid? I’ve never been good at asking for help, always thinking someone will figure me out and just know what to do for me.  Less accountability on myself…I’ve never been a mom but my mom could tell by the sound of my voice or simply my actions to know something was up…I miss my mom.  I try to get what I need from my friends, but when they fail to recognize my needs, I implode like an old forgotten casino in Vegas, giving way to new neon lights…I melt like ice cream in late July!  As if its someone else’s responsibility to magically know what I need! Oh God, I’m broken and I need help, help me find my missing pieces. Teach me to ask for what I need, show me the difference between making a request and begging & being burdensome, teach me how to accept the truth.  I stand in shame of my actions, wishing I could take it all back but what is done, is done.  Such finality of it all! Oh God of mercy I am utterly ashamed of my words and actions and though I am not worthy of your forgiveness, I seek your mercy and grace to be upon me as I close out this day and my I be reminded of your steadfast and unconditional love for me and that I will see others through eyes of mercy and grace even in my humanness, to God be the glory forever and ever! Amen.”

All praise and glory be to God! ~Amen

~Peace~