Dreams Part II

I experienced another dream recently and just today I confided in a friend about the content of that dream. A bit of background to set the stage, I was enjoying lunch with my friend and we were sharing with one another stories of our recent Thanksgiving activities. We had not been able to connect for the past few weeks and it was so relaxing to just interact and communicate face to face. As we were sharing with one another our conversation lead to a recent blog posts of mine and as we were talking I was reminded of a second dream since the first one I wrote about. As I mentioned in my earlier post, I do not know the meaning of dreams or what they might be composed of and for but nonetheless it moved me and took hold of my thoughts. Over the past few years I’ve had the distinct feeling that I am on a journey or at least preparing for a journey. I have tried to open myself to whatever God is leading me to as well as what God is leading me away from. I would be the first to say, “life is complicated.” I would also go on to say, “life is simple.” Both of these can be true, as sinful human beings we, yes “we” complicate things and at the very same time we can also see that life can be simple and clear. I would never say life is easy, it is definitely not easy and yet it can be lived with joy, zeal and love. God’s promises are true and His Words are healing, teaching, comforting, and life breathing. I use the word “simple” in regards to the teaching of the Bible, God has provided a step by step guide to be obedient, loving children of God. God goes into great detail explaining His love for each of us, He purposefully created each of us with specific gifts. Wow! How incredible is that(?). As far as dreams go, they are often about more than just the dream, allegories and metaphors for things. So, my first dream was about meeting someone who seemed to be destined to be part of my life, it felt intimate. It produced a sense of harmony and completeness like I’ve never felt before. I don’t recall seeing the person’s face in my dream, only their hair and oddly their eyes. Not so much a reflection of the eyes, more a sense of their soul. Now, with regards to my more recent dream it too left me feeling things I’ve missed and longed for. The dream takes place in a sparsely filled room, sitting at a round table, perhaps it’s a restaurant. I’m sitting at the table and sitting to my left is my mom, we were talking and all of a sudden my gaze went towards someone approaching our table and I seemed to have lost all consciousness of the moment because all my attention had been diverted to the person approaching. I can hear and feel my mom say with a smile, the smile that only a parent can produce when they know that their child is truly happy…she says, “That’s the One! I can just tell, I can see the love!” Then I wake from my dream…wanting to return to that place just to catch a glimpse of the one, of the love. I can’t even begin to try to describe the feeling of seeing my mom smile and be happy for me and optimistic for me, to be proud of me, she was joyfully happy. As for the “one” I’m not sure what any of it truly means and I’m putting my trust in God, maybe it means I’m ready to see what the future might hold for me, I’m a hopeless romantic and love happy endings. Perhaps the “one” is a newer version of myself, self-discovery towards a journey for God or meeting my soul mate that God created just for me(?). The first step to any of this is giving God control, trusting in His Will. There is one lesson I am trying to accept and learn, moving forward can only be successful when we let go of things that keep us in the past. Often I feel overwhelmed because I have one hand on the future and one hand on the past, creating an emotional tug-a-war! I recently talked about this in my blog entitled “Emotional Cleaning” and I explained the acceptance that things can be “true” and “not true” just because something is not true now doesn’t mean it wasn’t true at the time it was said or written.  I came to this realization when I was sifting through old birthday cards and old scrapbooks, reading old love letters and promise that were made and knowing that things are vastly different now. I was initially hurt because the words were not true or not true today, how unfair I was being to myself and to those memories.  Those things were true at the time the cards and letters were written, I’m choosing to be thankful for the happy memories and mindful of where they belong, in the past. They will not go away if I simply let go of holding onto them. Just as one of my favorite poems says, “…some leave footprints on our hearts…”. People are guided into our lives when we need them, and when they have fulfilled their purpose, they will move onto the next person who needs them. This way of thinking has not been an easy task for me, it wasn’t until I realized that I’ve had a lifetime of these experiences of unique and special individuals being a part of my life when I needed them the most.  I challenge myself and you to choose to be happy they were and are a part of our life story, not sad because they had to move on.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?”
Matthew 6:25-27
“Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
Jeremiah 29:12-13

~Blessings and Peace~