As I spoke and prayed with God today I thanked Him for all the blessings I have in my life and the ones I enjoy everyday. Tonight, I’m in my parents home surrounded by the sights, sounds and smells of my youth. There’s no turkey basting, rolls baking or noodles being made but I can sense them all the same. Every corner holds a memory of her, some from her youth while others are simply “mom” my mom. I should not be sad as she would not approve, but I miss her all the same. Honestly, daily I thank God for giving me such a wonderful love filled life, I have more than most can claim to in this life, I have food, shelter, clothing, family, friends, job, health insurance…I am not rich in a worldly sense of the meaning but rich I am because I have been saved by Jesus and He’s with me at all times, most especially when I’m feeling very alone. I would very much like to feel my moms loving arms around me just one more time, to have the opportunity to say I love you one more time. I didn’t know that my last goodbye would be the “last” goodbye. I remember it so vividly, the very spot and time of day, the day of the week and watched as she drove away, both of us waving. Holidays and special days bring floods of memories sometimes too many to contain my emotions, today is one of those days. I find it easy to cry and the tears easily flow during the simplest thing as watching TV. I know my tears need a release but I often restrain them. You are probably wondering if there’s a point to be made from all this, I am going to be honest I started typing because I felt called to do so by God, I am searching as I type the words that come from my heart. I want to share with you that we celebrate “Thanksgiving” once a year but we as Christian every single day is a day of “Thanksgiving!” I want to embrace these emotions that are tangled up inside me, join me during this Thanksgiving to embrace all the things you have in your life, God will bless and keep you! Not my promises but God’s. Numbers 6:24-26 (NIV) “The Lord bless you and keep you; The Lord make His face shine on you and be gracious to you; The Lord turn His face towards you and give you peace.”
May this “Thanksgiving” be filled with memories new and old and most especially the everlasting love of God!
~Blessings and Peace~