I have been away for a few days and it was difficult to write during that time for reasons that are difficult to explain but my thoughts are filled with things I want to share. I have just returned from visiting with family, family…that word itself can ignite memories or develop a spark for what the future may hold. It is used to describe relatives by birth, marriage or adoption; people joined together with a common bond; and someone’s lineage. For me, family is the people in my heart! As I was driving home today from a long weekend with my father, brother, aunt and cousins I was awe-struck with an overwhelming feeling on blessedness. I have been fortunate to have known my great-grandparents; grandparents; aunts and uncles; cousins (1st, 2nd and 3rd generation)…but even more than my blood relatives God has blessed me with friends from high school; college and jobs, each are every bit my family as well. And, more amazingly God continues to place people in my life that are more than just friends, I love them as family. I guess I’ve known this extraordinary feeling of love for a very long time without truly recognizing its depth or reciprocal value until I had faced some very sad and painful events in my life. The one single thing that has remained in my life through all the good and the painful things that I have experienced and sadly I failed to see it on a regular basis and that is the everlasting, unconditional love of God. God has never left me, though I often leave Him out of my life. It’s sometimes easy to remember say thank you to God when life is good, but even then we think “look what I did!” and leave God completely out. But, we are quick to think of God when things go bad! I can’t lie; I have been guilty of the later more times than I care to say. We never want to take responsibility for the bad choices we make, it’s somehow God’s fault, and the good things that happen to us…Look what I did! God is never mentioned. I have come to this conclusion after rediscovering the most profound thing, I belong to God! Without God I would not be here, I would not have even been born. All that I am, all that I have is a gift from God. I am a sinner, I was born a sinner and only by the grace of God and the sacrifice of Jesus Christ am I able to proclaim that I am a child of God, God is my family, He created me to bring glory to Him and He gave me a purpose, my life has a purpose. Daily, I struggle to be the person I was born to be, the struggle is my humanness and only by inviting God to be with us and in us through the work of the Holy Spirit on a daily basis can we truly be happy, the kind of happiness that fills you from the inside out. I am the woman I am because of God, because of the family I was given to…I have no regrets because if not for the experiences I have had, I would not be who I am now…through it all, a child of God. I could and have sometimes do compared myself to others, and think if I had only understood life and took it more serious years ago, I would not have wasted time and been doing God’s will and living out my purpose. There I go second guessing God; He precisely and purposely was in control the whole time. Thanks be to God! I feel as if my eyes have been opened, I am purposely starting and ending my day with conversations with God and invite Him on this journey through life. He’s always been there, and I think it makes God smile when I simply say, “Let’s go and meet the day together!” I do not understand all life’s experiences, but I know that God is with me, always. A very dear friend (thank you!) gave me Psalms 62 today and I pray it blesses you as it did me!
Peace & Blessings˜
New International Version (NIV)
1 Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him.
2 Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
3 How long will you assault me?
Would all of you throw me down—
this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
4 Surely they intend to topple me
from my lofty place;
they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,
but in their hearts they curse.
5 Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
my hope comes from him.
6 Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
8 Trust in him at all times, you people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.
9 Surely the lowborn are but a breath,
the highborn are but a lie.
If weighed on a balance, they are nothing;
together they are only a breath.
10 Do not trust in extortion
or put vain hope in stolen goods;
though your riches increase,
do not set your heart on them.
11 One thing God has spoken,
two things I have heard:
“Power belongs to you, God,
12 and with you, Lord, is unfailing love”;
and, “You reward everyone
according to what they have done.”