Lost, Here all the Time…

Video Credit: Me (Sodalis Nature Park, IN)

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For days now…

The winds of this life have left me wanting…searching…lost…and forgotten.


Satisfaction is elusive in a very real sense.

My thoughts, they deceive me

What is fact and what is fiction?

What to do?

Fact and fiction, all scrambled one upon another.

I have lost my way,

A ship at sea with no captain, no sail.

O God of heaven and earth,

Lead me back to you!

I need what only you can give,

Forgiveness and acceptance.

Only you can love me, though undeserving I am…

Your unconditional love will free me from myself.

Please, I beg you…

Take these burdens, teach me your ways.

My ways are weak and cause great pain.

I ache and yearn for what this world cannot give, though I try unsuccessfully.

Alas, this world does not sustain me.

It pleasures in my pain.

Take my empty dreams and broken promises.

Fill me with your love, your compassion and your promises.

You will never fail.

You will never be withered by time.

Your promises, compassion and your love endure generation after generation with no end.

O God, clothe me with your love.

Use me to spread your message to others.

Open the eyes of others like me, to your love.

Longing for real joy and true happiness.

Cradle me and all your children in your limitless, abounding love for now and always, forevermore.


~C.A.Robinson©️
July 05, 2013 at 2328
*Updated April, 04, 2021 at 1735

~Charlotte, Seeker of unexpected Comfort, Happiness, Joy and Patience.

Skin and Truth

β€œFor now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known.” β€”1 Corinthians 13:12 (NRSVA)

Years of stretching and pulling

Endless tossing and turning

All the questions, doubts and complete denial

Seeking and searching for your approval

Feeling alone, rejected, an outcast

Looking for understanding and acceptance

Your face was blank, nothing, a void

Running and hiding…I thought from you?

I did not fit! Out of Style! Out of date?

The years have made you soften

The roughness of your edges are slowly disappearing

Truth, it finally came to me…

The most unexpected of places

-Within me-

Not my reflection in a mirror

Not an action or expression

My heart, my very soul-

I had not accepted me

My obstacle in life has begun to fade.

-C.A.Robinson©️

05/13/07 at 0005

β€œFor surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope. Then when you call upon me and come and pray to me, I will hear you. When you search for me, you will find me; if you seek me with all your heart.” β€” Jeremiah 29:11-13

~Charlotte, Seeker of unexpected Comfort, Happiness, Joy and Patience.

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Lord, You Are My Everything

Wednesday, March 24th, 2021

Hello Bloggers, Friends and Family β€”

I am currently sitting on a picnic table at a favorite park of mine. The weather is beautiful and calming to my spirit. I want to share an original poem and photos of my day. Wishing you all a wonderful Wednesday afternoon and evening, thanks for stopping by. Everyone’s time is valuable and I am honored and grateful for your support.

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Lord, You Are My Everything

Lord, fill me with your spirit

Fill me to overflowing

Help me spread your love

Through my actions

Through my speech

Through my prayers

I am nothing without you

Teach me your ways O Lord

Keep me within your loving embrace

Give me a humble heart

Give me gentleness of words

Cover me with your abiding grace

I am a seeker

O Lord I thirst for new knowledge

I am your willing servant

Guide me to your Truth

Chase after me when I go astray

I am your child and I often wander way

Without you I am an empty vessel

Without you I fill myself with selfish desires

Without you I am a stranger with no home

Without you I am poor sinful creature

Without you I would not be, for you are my Creator

You alone are my Rock

You alone are my Redeemer

You alone are my Refuge

You alone are my shelter

You alone are my everything

My Father, my Brother and my Spirit


Your word tells me that I can do all things through you, help me to be ever present of your will, give me strength of perseverance until the day of your return or until you call me home. Your loving daughter.

πŸ’ πŸ”ΉπŸ’ πŸ”ΉπŸ’ πŸ”ΉπŸ’ πŸ”ΉπŸ’ πŸ”ΉπŸ’ πŸ”ΉπŸ’ πŸ”ΉπŸ’ 

β€œI can do all things through him who strengthens me.”

β€” Philippians 4:13 (NRSVA) β€”

Charlotte A. Robinson ©️
March 24th, 2021 at 16:52 Sodalis Park, IN

~Charlotte, Seeker of unexpected Comfort, Happiness, Joy and Patience.

Growth, Prayers Answered

Hello dear friends

I’ve been spending time reading some of my writing from over the years and wanted to share some with you. My hope is that it might resonate with someone else and help promote healing and recognition of the power of God. Without God, I am nothing! As I read this particular writing and the corresponding date it was written, it reminded me of just how far God has brought me. I was still struggling with the loss of my mother and though I didn’t truly acknowledge it at the time, I needed to find myself and to figure out what I wanted in this life. I was still struggling with being alone after a nine year relationship and found it hard to let go and move forward. I caused myself a lot of frustration, directly due to my stubbornness. The other huge factor during all this was I kept God at a distance. Foolishly thinking I could handle life on my own. Through the years I have learned that God doesn’t make things just disappear from our lives, He walks with us through life and all it’s road bumps. He truly is a friend to sinners. I’m proud to call him friend, He’s my life Savior! The past few years have not always be easy or burden free but it has been so worth it, knowing that I am a stronger person, a more accepting person, a better human being, a more devoted and thankful Christian, trusting God with my life. And the best news of all, it’s all available to you as well. It makes no difference who you are or where you’re from…God loves you and wants to be your God! Trust Him!

 

A special thank you to my friends who stood by me through thick and thin; thank you for renewed friendship that I was sure I had ruined beyond repair due to my inability to be honest about myself years ago; thank you to a new friend that has become so special to me, you are my mentor, teacher, friend and spiritual guide and pure joy to share life experiences with; to friendships that have remained strong throughout my life with grace, patience and forgiveness, thank you. I’m tempted to list their names but I’m fearful I would miss someone and would feel awful for that.

A very special thank you to my church and church family. You have loved me unconditionally and I consider myself family to each and every one of you!

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August 31, 2013 2:30 PM

“As I sit here typing letters to this page, forming words to describe the feelings I have pinned up in my head, my very soul is agitated, feelings are bouncing around in my head, is that supposed to happen? I’m angry but failing to understand why? When this day started I was focused and driven, by mid-afternoon I became a woman possessed…loud, negative and condescending, it was as if I lost total control of who I am.  I did not recognize the person I became,  a stranger in my body acting absurd and foolish.  I believe I actual had a temper- tantrum, seriously at my age.  Could all this anger come from being afraid? I’ve never been good at asking for help, always thinking someone will figure me out and just know what to do for me.  Less accountability on myself…I’ve never been a mom but my mom could tell by the sound of my voice or simply my actions to know something was up…I miss my mom.  I try to get what I need from my friends, but when they fail to recognize my needs, I implode like an old forgotten casino in Vegas, giving way to new neon lights…I melt like ice cream in late July!  As if its someone else’s responsibility to magically know what I need! Oh God, I’m broken and I need help, help me find my missing pieces. Teach me to ask for what I need, show me the difference between making a request and begging & being burdensome, teach me how to accept the truth.  I stand in shame of my actions, wishing I could take it all back but what is done, is done.  Such finality of it all! Oh God of mercy I am utterly ashamed of my words and actions and though I am not worthy of your forgiveness, I seek your mercy and grace to be upon me as I close out this day and my I be reminded of your steadfast and unconditional love for me and that I will see others through eyes of mercy and grace even in my humanness, to God be the glory forever and ever! Amen.”

All praise and glory be to God! ~Amen

~Peace~