Sunday, September 6th, 2020
Dear friends —
My day started off with a child pointing his two hands/fingers at me clasps together forming a make-believe gun and him saying “pow-pow!” I found no humor in this and honestly, for only a millisecond did I even see him as a child. A part of me felt violated and attacked. I thought about this after I got into my car to go to work…I found myself mulling over my childhood. My brother and I played with toy guns as children. I was raised to respect guns and that real guns are not to be played with. Guns were never locked and we knew not to get them unless it was needed. I remember once I used a shotgun to kill a snake in our woodshed, completely acceptable by my parents as they had taught me gun safety. Once I killed the snake, I put the gun away and that was it. Should I now question this(?). My answer is NO! My parents taught me many things in addition to gun safety, such as respecting others and the property of others, be kind and always do more than expected. So I’m good with my childhood. I’m thankful that I am not raising children in today’s culture. I pray that there will be an end to all the violence going on in the world.
Then, as I returned home from work and drive up to my building I see that none of the outside lights/lamps were on. I was angry, I fired off an email to the leasing office and explained my deep frustration with the situation as this was not the first time this has recently happened. And, wouldn’t you know it…as soon as I hit the send button, the building lights come on! Now I’m mad that I sent a scathing email and now it doesn’t matter. Once I was settled in at home I was feeling more and more guilty that I let myself get so upset, so I called to leave a message, apologizing for the email and to my surprise an actual person answers the phone. Apparently, we have a messaging center now instead of voicemail. The young man that answered was very nice and stated he understood my uneasiness with the darkness. He said he was pass along my message and thanked me for calling.
After all this, I reminded myself to pause and B-R-E-A-T-H-E as a dear friend often tells me to do. Today, I failed to be the person God has called me to be. The good news is I can go to God and ask for forgiveness. We are all broken and are in need of a Savior, some days I’m less broken and for those days I am truly thankful. I may not have been my best today but I have learned, rather (re) learned the art of B-R-E-A-T-H-E. I am settling in for a good nights sleep 💤😴and I’m praying for a better day tomorrow.
If you’ve ever had a day that you question yourself and your actions, go to God with it. Trust me, He will be there for you and He cares for you, He loves you! 💜
May I suggest reading all Ecclesiastes 7, it is noted as, “A Disillusioned View of Life.” https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=Ecclesiastes%207:1-29&version=NRSV
Friends, thank you for your support and your prayers, Blessings to you this day! 💛🙏🏻🌻
Until next time…🔆💙🌻🌈💛
Be good to yourself…😴 💤💫💐🎉
Be kind to one another…🌸👋🤗🌷🙏🏻
Please practice healthy social distancing along with good health and hygiene habits! May God’s Blessings be abundant to you today! Amen.
ειρήνη– “Peace” in Greek, reference listed the below.