Lenten Journey Day 31 – Aging: A Partial Awakening

I found today’s writings by Lewis somewhat comforting in the sense of growing older and getting old. They are drastically different and much depends on one’s perspective. I have recently heard a couple of songs that truly resonate with me and my journey both in physical years and spiritual. There are times I look at my life and wonder just where the time went, remembering carefree days of just living life, then one day realizing things changed, I changed, people changed…I’m reminded that this is called life. I have recently had conversations with a few very close friends of mine posing the questions of “why did it take me so long to learn this?”; “When did I stop calling, writing or talking to_____(too numerous to type).” Do you know the answers? I didn’t at first, be but was right in front of me all along, it is all part of a plan, God’s plan. I learned in the manner that was best for me, not everyone else, just me! I think one of the toughest things I’ve felt guilty about over the years is loosing touch with people who profoundly impacted my life, some in small ways and others on a larger scale, nonetheless they all made a difference. I remember thinking these individuals are going to be a part of the my life for rest of my life, little did I realize at the time that would be true but it did not occur exactly the way I thought it would. My best friend from high school, we drifted apart and reconnected a few years ago and then gone again as quickly as she returned, I was sad about this even hurt but I decided to trust God, if we are meant to be friends during this part of my life journey we will. Does this or others that I have drifted away from change anything about how special those memories were, absolutely not. I learned so many valuable lessons about life and experienced a lot of great times. We can’t go back, we must move forward and live in the present. We cannot be Jesus’s hands and feet if we are trying to relive our past. The same scenario goes for college, wow…where did that time go(?)! My friends from college now have grown children if their own and careers…life! I’ve been able to reconnect with some via Facebook and it makes my heart glad to see their lives filled with the love of God and beautiful life experiences. So as I was thinking about all this things and feeling very melancholy, the only words I can say is, I’ve lived, I’ve experienced life, I’ve got a career and I’ve always got each and every person that has brought me joy within my grasp every single day in my heart and in my memory. So, thank you (your name) for your friendship and the memories, good and the not-so-good they have all helped in making and molding me into the person I am today. Aging is just part of the journey of life, God has certainly blessed me with an abundance of joys and memories. I’m sure most of you have read the poem by Flavia Weedn “Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same.”  There’s  not much anyone can add to that, but I can’t just stop here without mentioning my current friends, some brand new and others for a while (your name here), you each add to my life in unique and special ways! I am the person I am today because of add the people who were the literal hands and feet of Jesus to me. Much love you all of you!

Aging, don’t have regrets everything we go through can teach us something, sometimes it’s easy to know what that is other times it takes a lot of patience and prayer.

Isaiah 55:1-7 “Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and you will delight in the richest of fare. Give ear and come to me; listen, that you may live. I will make an everlasting covenant with you, my faithful love promised to David. See, I have made him a witness to the people’s , a ruler and commander of the people’s. Surely you will summon nations you know not, and nations you do not know will come running to you, because of the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, for he has endowed you with splendor.” Seek the Lord while he may be found; call on him while he is near. Let the wicked forsake their ways and the unrighteous their thoughts. Let them turn to the Lord, and he will have mercy on them, and to our God, for he will freely pardon.”

Psalm 37:23-26 “The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand. I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread. They are always generous and lend freely; their children will be a blessing.”
~Blessings and Peace~