September 1st, 2023

What Makes Us Dream?

Why Do We Dream, The Things We Dream?

Sweet Pea/Lathyrus odoratus

The sweet pea, Lathyrus odoratus, is a flowering plant in the genus Lathyrus in the family Fabaceae (legumes), native to Sicily, southern Italy and the Aegean Islands.

—Source *Wikipedia

What does it mean to call someone “sweet pea?”

“A term of endearment for something sweet or lovely; a child or an intimate partner.”

The sweet pea is a beautiful flower and an expression of fondness. I have someone in my life that used to call me “sweet pea,” I say used to because I haven’t been called that since the last time we were face to face. It’s been eight years since I was referred to as “sweet pea.” So, why in the world would it show up in my dreams?

😴 💤 💭 🛌 😴 💤 💭 🛌 😴

I had the dream last night and it’s been on my mind all day long. The dream starts out simple enough, meeting an old friend. Spending time talking and catching up on life events. I have no idea how long the dream was in real time but in dreamland it covered two days. I experienced several emotions starting at…recognition of someone I knew; moving onto someone I trusted; then someone I missed; leading to reconnection; then friendship moving into a close physical encounter. Finally, POOF, the dream was over as my alarm clock woke me up. I’ve been trying to understand the dream throughout my day, in the end it was just a dream and far from reality. Perhaps just an overly active imagination. There was truth in the dream, the person is real, someone I call a friend and that I wholeheartedly trust with my deepest thoughts.

After contemplation, I came up with a list possibly reasons for the dream.

• I have been under a lot of stress
• I miss hanging out with friends
• I sometimes feel lonely but like being alone
• I miss physical contact (hugs/kisses)
• I am too independent
• I am scared that I will always be alone
• I am protective of myself
• I miss feeling love

Now, let me stop 🛑 right here…to all my friends please not worry, I will always welcome your prayers and good vibes but let me reassure you…I AM FINE! Life is tough for all of us for one reason or another. I love you, my friends, I wish I had more time to see you, more time to visit with you; and mostly time to just be with you. Being present with others is so rare and so healing. 💙

I have a trip planned for October of this year and so looking forward to seeing friends I only get to see about once a year. Get ready for hugs & kisses & laughter (Margaret, Greg, Alicia and Nancy). Fingers crossed 🤞🏻 life doesn’t get in the way. 🩷🦩🩷🦩🩷🦩🩷

I am a strong, independent God loving woman who knows that I am loved by my Creator, created with a purpose and have an eternal home in Heaven with Jesus my Savior and Redeemer. God did not promise to give us easy lives, He did promise to always be with us. I know that I am never truly alone, it’s just a human emotion that tries to take advantage of human weakness manipulated by the power of darkness (satan, the devil or whatever you might call the fallen angel Lucifer) as he preys on God’s children.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

—Jeremiah 29:11

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

—John 16:33 (NIV

“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.”

—John 14:1-3

“And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

—Matthew 28:20b

Helpful Resources: click the link

…dreaming helps you consolidate and analyze memories (like skills and habits) and likely serves as a “rehearsal” for various situations and challenges that one faces during the daytime.

~Charlotte, Seeker of unexpected Comfort, Happiness, Joy and Patience.

Resources:

https://www.biblegateway.com/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sweet_pea

https://health.clevelandclinic.org/why-do-we-dream/

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dream

My Story

WooHoo year #2 with PTP. My name is Charlotte and I am so proud to be a part of this organization. I came to know about Pledge the Pink through two of my dearest and oldest friends; one of which is a breast cancer survivor. They both shared their wonderful experience with PTP and what is means to be a part of this cause and to their team, Team Boo Bees. I am grateful and blessed to be part of Team Boo Bees. I have been more fortunate than most, I make sure to get my annual mammogram and follow-up on any abnormalities. I have had three biopsies and all were benign, but scary nonetheless. This cause is important to me because cancer is scary and life taking, my wish is no one ever has to go through a diagnosis of cancer. Cancer does not discriminate and I believe no one should ever be alone in fighting it. I believe in this organization and I hope to one day be even more involved. My hope is to raise money to assist women in need of medical services and support. I am grateful for any amount you might be able to give, no amount is too small and your prayers are always welcomed. Thank you for leaning into whatever your heart is guiding you to do.

This year is even more important to me because someone very close to me, as close to me as my mother; just a week ago was told she has cancer. Thankfully, she is diagnosed with DCIS which is also called intraductal carcinoma or stage 0 breast cancer. This magnifies the importance of yearly mammograms and quickly diagnosing this disease. She is schedule for an appointment next week and mostly likely a lumpectomy within a week or two. I was able to attend her follow up appointment with an oncologist, he was kind and reassuring yet was so insightful that even with stage 0; it is still cancer and it’s scary. I’m walking for this special person this year, and for so many more. 🩷

My Story • 2022

I can’t say enough good things about this organization. My experience last year was beyond any expectations I dreams of. So many participants and volunteers. Being surrounded by another 1499 individuals who are passionate about breast cancer awareness and raising money for mammograms was extraordinary. I met so many wonderful individuals all with their own stories to tell and why PTP is so important to them.

I was so excited to get to Fripp Island, SC that I drove straight throw and arrived at 4am but could not get onto the island to the house until 3:30 in the afternoon. I took advantage and drove around looking at the sights. Stopped for coffee in the Low Country and visited a park. It was all so beautiful.

My first year walking did not turn out as well as I would have liked but I did give it my all. I was able to complete day 1/10 miles. Day 2, I was only able to complete 5 miles due to extremely sore feet, actually I had severe blisters on both feet. I wore the same shoes I trained with but I probably wasn’t as prepared as I could have been. I was able to volunteer my last day, I missed the walking with my friends and teammates but volunteering with the Boo Bee Supporter was a lot of fun too! We passed out drinks and protein bars to walkers and runners.

My team is Team Boo Bees, our mascot is bees and boo (ghosts) or boobs!

I set a fundraising goal of $2000, I have raised $100 and I’m so grateful to the individuals who donated to this great cause. I realize times are tough for everyone given the financial constraints of our time, please pray about giving and follow your conscience. I totally understand if you cannot contribute financially, please consider praying for the event and all the participants.

This link will take you to my fundraising page:

https://donate.pledgethepink.com/?p=25721

This link will take you to PTP main page for for information about the organization:

https://pledgethepink.com/

Thank you for taking the time to view my blog and Pledge the Pink 2023. I sincerely appreciate each one of you.

~Charlotte, Seeker of unexpected Comfort, Happiness, Joy and Patience.

Friday, August 4th, 2023

“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.”

— Matthew 7:13-14

Hello Friends ~

I hope this post finds you well! I am currently listening to an audible book by Philip Graham Ryken called, “King Solomon: The Temptations of Money, Sex and Power.” One of the topics discussed was choices, which that leads to decisions and onto specific outcomes/consequences. The writer’s prelude, my assumption is he’s a golf fan, starts out telling of the choices and consequences of Tiger Woods. Admittedly, I like Tiger, his abilities have astonished many in the sport of golf. In reality, he’s a human being, just like all the rest of us. We are all created by God and whether in life or in the afterlife will one day, bow down and declare God is God!

“So that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.” Philippians 2:10-11 (ESV)

King Solomon

When Solomon rose to the throne, he sought after God, and God gave him an opportunity to request for whatever he desired. Solomon humbly recognized his inability to rule well and nobly asked God for the wisdom he would need to govern God’s people righteously. God gave him wisdom and also wealth (1 Kings 3:4-15). In fact, “King Solomon was greater in riches and wisdom than all the other kings of the earth” (1 Kings 10:23). God also gave Solomon peace on all fronts during most of his reign (1 Kings 4:20-25).

— christianity.com (*see reference below)

King Solomon’s “CHOICES”

His “Choices” Led to His Demise

Solomon’s decline did not happen all at once. It was a slow process of his heart turning away from undivided loyalty to the God of the Covenant. In, 1 Kings Chapter 11, the fatal flaw for Solomon will be magnified. His demise will lead to the dividing of the kingdom. (*see references below for more information)

God’s Royal Commands for Kings

“When you enter the land the Lord your God is giving you and have taken possession of it and settled in it, and you say, “Let us set a king over us like all the nations around us,”

•be sure to appoint over you a king the Lord your God chooses.

•He must be from among your fellow Israelites.

•Do not place a foreigner over you, one who is not an Israelite.

•The king, moreover, must not acquire great numbers of horses for himself or make the people return to Egypt to get more of them, for the Lord has told you, “You are not to go back that way again.”

•He must not take many wives, or his heart will be led astray.

•He must not accumulate large amounts of silver and gold.

•When he takes the throne of his kingdom, he is to write for himself on a scroll a copy of this law, taken from that of the Levitical priests. It is to be with him, and he is to read it all the days of his life so that he may learn to revere the Lord his God and follow carefully all the words of this law and these decrees and not consider himself better than his fellow Israelites and turn from the law to the right or to the left.

“Then he and his descendants will reign a long time over his kingdom in Israel.”

— Deuteronomy 17:14-20

I would dare say that most of you familiar with the story of Solomon; however, I experienced or at least had the realization that King Solomon, like Tiger Woods are no different from anyone else, that is a child of God. I might call it divine intervention to clear thinking. I realized in real time that each day upon waking we all have a choice, actually the day itself will provide multiple opportunities for choices. The most important is who will I serve today, God or myself (?). Everyday is a gift from God. All that I (we) have is a gift from God. It’s not that I don’t know these things, it’s that life is filled with so much noise of chaos and hectic circumstances; all of which are frustrating and sometimes even frightening. Truth is God is readily available to each of us anytime and anywhere. God delights in us.

“The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.”

— Zephaniah 3:17

“But the Lord takes pleasure in those who fear him, in those who hope in his steadfast love.”

— Psalm 147:11

Speaking from experience, spending time with God can strengthen one’s resolve to live a life with purpose and clarity for God. Also, from experience, it is easy to be drawn away from the one thing that feeds your soul. How can this be, you might ask? The distractions of life even in the tiniest of measure, once it diverts our hearts can be a slippery slope towards destruction. Recently, I’ve enhanced my devotional time by using varied websites to experience God in new and different ways. Prayer has always been a part of my daily life but I have also been more intentional with my conversations (prayers) with God. Being connected with God can occur in so many different ways: verbal, thoughts, actions and listening/being silent. I have been absent from Church functions for quite sometime, some of my reasons are valid based upon my work schedule others I’m still sorting out. I miss my friends, my church family but my love for them has not changed during my absence. I am by no means saying that everyone needs to attend formal church services to have a relationship with God, it is entirely a personal choice. Attending church for many can be for the benefits of community and social support and learning/growing of God’s love.

What comes to mind is…Just Be Kind…to everyone because we can never know what is happening in their life. I see signs and t-shirts that promote this but how many of us actually do it. There’s too much hate and hostility in the world. We can all learn lessons from Solomon and Tiger, and so many others. Every person is fighting some kind of battle, some may be visible but most are not, please, JUST BE KIND.

“Indeed the safest road to Hell is the gradual one–the gentle slope, soft underfoot, without sudden turnings, without milestones, without signposts,…Your affectionate uncle, Screwtape.”

—C.S. Lewis, The Screwtape Letters

Thank you for stopping by my blog today, I am grateful and honored. Bless you!

~Charlotte, Seeker of unexpected Comfort, Happiness, Joy and Patience.

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matt.7.13,Matt.7.14&version=NIV

https://www.christianity.com/wiki/people/king-solomon-in-the-bible.html#:~:text=Solomon%20humbly%20recognized%20his%20inability,1%20Kings%2010%3A23).

https://www.bibleoutlines.com/1-kings-111-43-downfall-of-solomons-kingdom-and-divine-discipline/#:~:text=Solomon’s%20decline%20did%20not%20happen,the%20dividing%20of%20the%20kingdom.

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Deut.17.14,Deut.17.15,Deut.17.16,Deut.17.17,Deut.17.18,Deut.17.19,Deut.17.20&version=NIV

Dear friends,

To those near to me and far from me, I love and miss you; I appreciate you and I pray for you. The fact that we met is nothing less than a miracle of the divine creator of all things.

I am currently reading a book that is interesting, insightful and a bit frightening. It’s not a horror book, it is a compilation of writings and essays written by C. S. Lewis between 1940 and 1963, a year before I was born, side note today is my birthday! I’ve become somewhat of a fan of Mr. Lewis’ writings over the years. The book I’m reading, called “ God in the Dock” has been on my book shelf for a number of years. I’ve always felt I wasn’t quite ready to read it or understand it. Truth is most of us put things off because of one reason or another, none of which are very valid.

• I can’t wear that, I will when I lose weight
• I can’t do that, I’m not talented enough
• I’m too old for that
• I’m not pretty enough

Get the idea! We all have excuses. I’ve got more than I dare to list.

I’m about half way through the book, actually listening through audible. The writings and essays cover a wide range of topics; to name a few: the logic of theism, good and evil, miracles, the role of women in the church, and ethics and politics.

I’ve already learned a few new ways of looking at life.

• We, that is to say each of us should not strive to be better than everyone else; BUT, be the best that we were created to be. Be the person God intended us to be. This along with encouraging others to do the same. Competition should be within oneself and not with others. In this spirit of living, the issue of jealous, envy or grudges have no foundation to grow. There’s nothing wrong with winning, as there’s nothing wrong with losing as long as everyone does their best in the performance. I played competitive sports for several years, I experienced both the highs and lows of competition. And, the reality is even if I did my very best sometimes I lost, not because I failed but my opponent was better. I see failure in a much different light than when I was younger. No blame on any one person, society and media place value and success on numbers (ratings, points, etc.). Failure just means an experience that requires some modifications and application changes.

• Chapter 10 “Christian Apologetics” I found this chapter of particular interest because Lewis is speaking to a group of Priests and Youth organizations. Of course I needed to understand “apologetics” I will share it now. Apologetics is quite literally defense of the faith; the Greek word apologia means “defense” as a lawyer gives at a trial. In every generation, people face the challenges, questions, and concerns of the gospel message of the Christian faith. The difference between apologetics and theology is Apologetics discusses and defends the faith against those who don’t understand or agree with it. Theology attempts to gain a deeper understanding of the faith. The point that Lewis makes is that when teaching, preaching and sharing of the Bible one should know their audience. I like this because for many of us laypeople, need our knowledge base expanded because we have not attended seminary or advanced biblical teachings or even understand the different languages as in the original texts using Hebrew, Arabic, Greek or Latin. These are all part of the Christian history even if we don’t read, write or speak it, when reference to it, it literally hold no meaning. The Bible has such a rich cultural context and holds such importance for Christianity’s foundation, we laypeople may never deep dive into it but we should be given the options to explore and hear the history of words and phrases used outside of our individual language.

• Good and evil, do they exist. Short answer, yes. Did God create evil, No. let me just say, I’m not a theologian…just sharing my thoughts. God created everything, including our ability to think (free will) and make decisions, (even bad ones). The Angelic being called Lucifer, created by God sinned and was cast out of Heaven. If you are interested in a a satire reading about Lucifer, that is now called Satan check out “The Screwtape Letters.” The Biblical account of Lucifer’s story it can be read here: Ezekiel 28 and Isaiah 14. https://www.christianity.com/wiki/angels-and-demons/how-did-lucifer-fall-and-become-satan-11557519.html?amp=1

• Then, in chapter 14 “‘Miserable Offenders’ An Interpretation Of Prayer Book Language” I found the prayers to be inspiring and truthful. I will share the below.

For many, this particular book “God in the Dock” I would not recommend as a starter book into C.S.Lewis’ work, I would suggest the following for starters:

• The Chronicles of Narnia
• The Screwtape Letters
• The Cosmic Trilogy
• Till We Have Faces
• A Grief Observed

Lastly, today I would like to extend my gratitude and appreciation to each person that is a part of this blog, thus is a part of my life. I joined WordPress at the recommendation from a very dear friend, and I thoroughly enjoy the community that has welcomed me. I missed sharing my anniversary date with everyone, it’s a few days late but the anniversary is not mine alone to celebrate, I share it all of YOU!

July 21, 2013

“Do not let your happiness depend on something you may lose.” — C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves

“There are a dozen views about everything until you know the answer. Then there’s never more than one.”― C.S. Lewis, That Hideous Strength

“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.”—C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

~ Charlotte, Seeker of unexpected Comfort, Happiness, Joy and Patience.

References:

https://www.orcuttchristian.org/Lewis%20CS%20-%20God_in_the_Dock.pdf

Tuesday, June 6th, 2023

Hello Friends ~

A few days ago, I was am sitting in a hospital room with my dad, he had been admitted due to health concerns with his breathing. He suffers with COPD and emphysema. I found myself sitting in the dark with only the glow of medical machine lights glowing green and red. In the room , a soothing noise could be heard, the bubbling of water that was providing him with moisture with his oxygen intake. Admittedly, it is very relaxing and I’m thankful that dad is resting comfortably.

It’s always interesting to me the seemingly random thoughts that surface when I allow myself to “be still.” Or, it could be sleep deprivation catching up on me (!), as I’ve been awake for nearly 20 hours. Either way, it doesn’t really matter because remembering my favorite things is like good medicine.

When I was a kid every Memorial weekend we would plan activities around listening to the Indy 500 race in our front yard. Dad would always have this AM/FM radio on and we would tune it into the race. Some of the activities we engaged in were washing and waxing the car; having parked in in the yard under a huge tree for shade. We had a metal and plastic swimming pool and the grill would be cooking burgers and hot dogs. And, my mom made the best homemade macaroni salad and potato salad, dessert would be her favorite chocolate sheet cake. This is one of my favorite things!

🇺🇸 ⭐️ 🌭 ❤️ 📻 💙 🍔 ⭐️ 🇺🇸

I learned to drive at a very young age, dad would let my brother and me sit on his lap when we were young and steer the car/truck. When we were tall enough to reach the pedals and steering wheel at the same time, mom & dad, both would let us drive on gravel country roads. I learned to drive a Ford truck with 3 gears on the column as well as 4 on the floor. Those were fun times! This is one of my favorite things!

One of my not so favorite things growing was Saturday house cleaning. But, good things come to those who wait (and work). After all the chores were completed, my mom and I would take baths and put on clean clothes and go grocery shopping. Yep, that was a treat! We would often take the car through the car wash and mom would buy Persian donuts and we would share them on the ride home. This is one of my favorite things! Also, as I think back on look Saturday’s I am forever grateful for them. Those days taught me many valuable lessons that have helped me in and through adulthood. This is one of my favorite things!

I was fortunate that my parents introduced me to team sports early in life. I began playing on a girls softball team when I was just 5 years old. I have so many fond memories of playing, winning and losing games, and all the wonderful girls/women I met along the way. I played the game I loved for over three decades. My biggest fan through it all was my mom. My dad also when work and time allowed. My mom drove me all over the state of Indiana during my teen years. She would drive over 4 hours to watch me play when I was in college, to say I was loved & blessed is an understatement. This is one of my favorite things!

My favorite family vacation growing up was the summer I turned 13. We, (my parents, my younger brother and me) traveled for two weeks and we camped every night at KOA campgrounds. Our trip took us through Illinois, Missouri, Kansas, Nebraska and South Dakota. The highlight of the trip was seeing Mt. Rushmore. We cooked all our meals and slept either in a tent or in our van. My parents let us stop at most of the souvenir shops we ask to see. The saddest day of our trip was the last day, we stopped by a store about an hour from home and we hear the announcement on a speaker that Elvis Presley had passed away. I guess I will always remember when and where I was on that day. The trip…This is one of my favorite things!

Truth is, these are just a few of my favorite things; it would be impossible to list them all. I am thankful to have been raised by loving, caring and responsible parents. Growing up we had what we needed and at times things we wanted. I am grateful my parents loved me enough to discipline me when I needed it and praised me when I deserved it. We may not have had lots of money but in my eyes we were the richest people I knew. This is my favorite thing.

“Start children off on the way they should go,and even when they are old they will not turn from it.”

—Proverbs 22:6

~ Charlotte, Seeker of unexpected Comfort, Happiness, Joy and Patience.

Monday, June 5th, 2023

Dear Friends ~

Recently, I have found myself overwhelmed, frustrated and even angry. What is even worse is that I have allowed my emotions to overflow into my personal and professional life. I admittedly can be bold and brass at times, when making statements I feel most passionately about. I also know, there are times when one needs to be more tempered and restrained. But, stress has a way of seeping out through stress fractures in our self-applied armor; the figurative cloaks we cover ourselves with. I am just human, not an action superhero from Marvels: Avengers, a personal favorite. And, I do not have a cloak of invisibility like Harry Potter. Just last week, I felt my body was telling me that I was depleted, needed rest and recovery but, being overconfident and unyieldingly stubborn I told myself, YOU GOT THIS! Well, that was a lie and as soon as I got to work and entered the office space I work in which was filled with coworkers…I lost myself and I all the restraints of my occasional brassy tone! It was like a dormant volcano just erupted. Let’s just say it was not long before I was called out by my supervisor, saying “let’s take a walk.” Dun, Dun Duuun! Sometimes it’s not always a good idea to speak aloud the words swirling in one’s head! I’m happy to say, we were able to talk things out and I took a few moments to collect myself and I returned to the office and apologized to everyone. I felt very ashamed and embarrassed, I knew I was wrong and needed forgiveness. The release of such a burden was as if weights were lifted off me.

I have been ignoring the signs my body has been telling me as well as suggests from friends to get some rest. I am not very good at say “no” and I often overextend myself. I love, really I do…love helping others and caring for others. I’m really bad, super bad about asking or accepting support or help. Trust me, I’ve been trying to make sense of my bad choices my entire life. Deep down I know I have an unresolved “something” I just can’t or haven’t been able to articulate it. I find that it bubbles towards the surface in times of deep stress and uncontrolled circumstances. Most of the time, I’m pretty good at keeping “it” whatever “it” is at bay.

If you know me, you might be asking “why I am not simply praying about this and turning it over to God?” I have tried and well, the truth is, I can be stubborn, foolish and selfish. I talk to God everyday but rarely confide about my personal struggles, all the time knowing and believing He already know my heart and everything about me. In fact, I have trouble telling most people about my struggles. There’s some misguided lesson I learned that to do so makes me weak and less than…oh, I don’t know. I have been feeling very unworthy and undeserving, maybe even a bit pitiful. But of course, I am unworthy and undeserving of God’s love, grace and forgiveness! I know and believe that God loves me, not because of anything I’ve done but because God loved me first. Jesus made a way of salvation for me. I’m human and forget that I’m a created being. I am a child of God, His love covers my sins, His mercy and grace have been extended to me by His great love.

I sometimes feel like the world is spinning out of control, the scales of justice tipping in extremes or not working at all. Violence and crimes are on the rise. There seems to be fewer and fewer people giving/receiving respect for one another, politeness is often ignored or scoffed at and self-preservation seems to a priory tat all costs.

Just to be clear, my life is not filled with doom and gloom. This mood or “bump in the road” is temporary. For instance, I look forward to walking into work on Sunday’s and Monday’s because I pass by at least 3-4 employees and just seeing them makes me smile. We exchange greetings and it feels…good! I really love my job and the duties I am responsible for, the people are pretty good too. I also have a friend that I text everyday, it is such joy to know someone is thinking about me and praying with me and for me. I have family that I love to spend time with, we tell stories over and over of our life experiences and remember fondly loved ones who are no longer with us.

It’s true what the Bible says about our lives…

Psalm 39:4-13 (NLT)

For Jeduthun, the choir director: A psalm of David.

Psalm 39:1-4 Matthew Henry’s Commentary 

David here recollects, and leaves upon record, the workings of his heart under his afflictions; and it is good for us to do so, that what was thought amiss may be amended, and what was well thought of may be improved the next time.


“I said to myself, “I will watch what I do and not sin in what I say. I will hold my tongue when the ungodly are around me.” 

“But as I stood there in silence—not even speaking of good things—the turmoil within me grew worse.”

The more I thought about it,the hotter I got, igniting a fire of words: “Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be.  Remind me that my days are numbered—how fleeting my life is.”

Psalm 39:5-13 Matthew Henry’s Commentary 

The psalmist, having meditated on the shortness and uncertainty of life, and the vanity and vexation of spirit that attend all the comforts of life, here, in these verses, turns his eyes and heart heaven-ward. When there is no solid satisfaction to be had in the creature it is to be found in God, and in communion with him; and to him we should be driven by our disappointments in the world. David here expresses,


“We are merely moving shadows, and all our busy rushing ends in nothing.  We heap up wealth, not knowing who will spend it. And so, Lord, where do I put my hope?

“My only hope is in you. Rescue me from my rebellion.”

“Do not let fools mock me. I am silent before you; I won’t say a word, for my punishment is from you.”

“But please stop striking me!  I am exhausted by the blows from your hand.”

“When you discipline us for our sins, you consume like a moth what is precious to us.  Each of us is but a breath.”

“Hear my prayer, O Lord!  Listen to my cries for help!  Don’t ignore my tears.  For I am your guest—a traveler passing through, as my ancestors were before me.”

“Leave me alone so I can smile again before I am gone and exist no more.”

“You do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away.”

James 4:14

Thank you for following my blog and visiting it today. It’s okay to have rough and difficult days, just remember you are never alone, God is with you. God is with me and I’m so very thankful for that.

~ ~Charlotte, Seeker of unexpected Comfort, Happiness, Joy and Patience.

References:

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Rom.5.15&version=CEV

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ps.39.1,Ps.39.2,Ps.39.3,Ps.39.4&version=NLT

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ps.39.6,Ps.39.7,Ps.39.8,Ps.39.9,Ps.39.10,Ps.39.11,Ps.39.12,Ps.39.13&version=NLT

Monday, May 22nd, 2023

Hello, first things first…thank you for taking a few minutes to check out my blog. I love this space where people from everywhere and nowhere can share their thoughts and ideas. I know there are some who might agree with me and likely some who do not and that’s is okay and probably should be expected if I’m truly realistic. Dialogue and healthy debate can be good and even encouraged.

Opportunities for seeing things from different perspectives can only help not hinder our learning and increase the depth of our understanding. I believe when people express themselves on particular topics that they feel very strongly about, they will be passionate in their delivery. Passion, enthusiasm, expectations along with facts should be presented even expected and in some cases desired to help deliver the message/idea.

The most important thing to keep in mind is to be respectful of your audience, to those who agree with you, the ones who may be undecided and especially to those who disagree with you. Being respectful does not mean you agree or even disagree but it does means others deserve the same privileges and freedoms as you do, we all deserve to be respected.

I recently read a devotional and it was as if God was talking directly to me. And I believe it’s a message everyone believer and nonbelievers alike needs to hear.

“In everything, do to others what you would have them do to you.”

— Matthew 7:12a

“He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”

— Micah 6:8

Find the app here: https://apps.apple.com/us/app/today-daily-devotion/id399087521.

Read the devotional here: https://todaydevotional.com/devotions/the-lord-has-shown-us-what-is-good?embedded#noredirect

🛸🪐 Something Different 🛸🪐

Okay followers, I recently began (re)watching the TV series Star Trek: Deep Space Nine. I caught an episode that was eerie and caused me to pause. The particular episode originally aired Jan 2, 1995. A time line within the episode takes place in 2024. How crazy is that(?)! Some of the scenes could easily be on the nightly news today. Watching the two part episodes called, “Past Tense” was frightening in that similar activities are actually happening right now and not only here in the United States but also around the globe. I don’t want to give too much away or even lead you to agree with my feelings, I only wish to share it with you. I felt the Holy Spirit calling me to share this with others.

Our world has many problems, so many that they cannot be fixed over night because they didn’t begin yesterday. I was raised with what I call “tough love” my parents loved me, never abused me and I did not get everything I wanted. Life has limitations, rules and responsibilities. I knew that money did not grow on trees, my parents ensured that I had the things I needed and even some wants. If I wanted something badly enough, I worked to earn the money to buy it.

I know the world is changing and growing, but I urge new generations and even older ones not to forget to learn life lessons that build a strong foundation for yourself as a person, to use your brain and not to rely solely on electronics to think for you. Your individuality is a gift, God created you and blessed you with the gift of life. I myself have fallen prey to the digital age, a decade or so ago I could retain phone numbers, addresses of so many people in my life and now, I rely too heavily on my phone to give me answers. The digital era we are traversing today is wonderful and helpful but I beg of you to remember you made of flesh and bone, you are more valuable than anything digital gadget…You, my friend are a child of the Most High, the King of Kings, the Prince of Peace, and the Lord God Almighty. Please remember this!

Star Trek: Deep Space Nine

A transporter accident sends Dax, Sisko and Bashir back in time to the year 2024, when San Fransisco was plagued with riots and social upheaval. Episode aired Jan 2, 1995

• Season 3 Episode 11 & 12
• Past Tense (Part 1 & 2)

https://episodes.how/show/star-trek-deep-space-nine/season-3/episode-12/links.html

https://episodes.how/show/star-trek-deep-space-nine/season-3/episode-11/links.html

Friends, you bless me through your prayers, support and encouragement. Go and be the very best YOU today and always. ~Much love! 🌸☀️💗

~Charlotte, Seeker of Hope — Psalm 62:5

Tuesday, May 16th, 2023

“For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.”
— 1 Corinthians 13:12 —

It is true that God knows each and every person, God is our Creator, our Father. I am not just saying this, I really believe it. God knows us better than our best friends and family. There’s no hiding from our Creator, although we try, oh how we try…

I’m sharing these thoughts with you today because I’m struggling, struggling with life and the unknowing, the uncertainty of earthly things.

Yesterday simply by chance I watching the college softball playoff brackets take shape. I allowed myself to daydream a bit…when I was in high school our school newspaper ask students what they wanted to be/do after H.S. My answer was to play professional softball (I don’t think that’s even a thing), nonetheless that was what I dreamed of. I started playing the game at age 5 and continued playing well into my thirties. I have so many memories and I really liked the skills the game taught me through the years. My favorite thing, other than playing the game was my mom being at every game possible. She was my biggest fan and supporter. I hope she knew just how much I loved being her daughter and how much I loved her. Beautiful memories.

I told a friend recently that I am at an age where the road ahead of me is much shorter than the one behind me. I am facing questions and life decisions that seem impossible but here I am. It’s funny, thinking back at the dreams I had of what my life might look like at the age I am…I was like most other girls I grew up with, I thought of marriage and a family. I watch a hallmark Christmas movie and think, awe I wish…

Life is not a hallmark movie and our dreams don’t always come true. Don’t get me wrong, dreams are good to have and I haven’t given up on all of mine just yet. I have made my share of bad decisions and have lived through them and learned to make better ones. I have loved boldly, I have lost love painfully and my heart mended. I’ve hurt people I care about, I’ve lied, cheated and been forgiven, not because I deserved it necessarily but granted through compassion, mercy and lots of grace.

I try not to use the word regret because for every bad choice or decision I have made, I’ve learned about myself. God has shown me a better way and has never stopped loving me, no matter how ridiculous or stupid I’ve been.

This post is NOT just about me, I’m no more and no less important than anyone else. We all struggle and we are all children of God, loved simply because we are His children.

Life is by definition “living.” *See Merriam-Webster-Webster

Things don’t always turn out as we expect them too, sometimes they are even better! However, when things seem to be “discombobulated” we can choose to give into defeat or we can rise above it. Fight or Flight, perhaps. I tend to turn within myself, close others out and retreat into my living space. I have friends and I have family to turn to and they would do whatever I need but, I often choose solitude. Being alone is not the same as loneliness, it can be a thin line though. I struggle with depression and have for most of my life. I am fully aware of the darkness that comes with the diagnosis and I practice being proactive instead of reactionary to its symptoms. Staying active and engaged with others is a great option. I am currently training for a weekend 30 miles in 3 days walk happening this fall to rise money for breast cancer preventative services and affordable mammograms for women. I have recently started to see the benefits of healthier eating with some weight loss. These are wonderful things that add joy to my life.

A few things that people may or may not know about me…

• I love to watch movies, all except horror films
• I love to listen to audiobooks
• I love learning about C.S.Lewis
• I’m a romantic at heart
• I long for companionship
• I ache for knowledge
• I have a bucket list
• I love going to Walt Disney World
• I love spending time with friends
• I miss my high school best friends
• I miss my college friends
• I want to travel
• I want a Honda Rebel 1100 DCT (Green Metallic)
• I don’t like conflict
• I don’t like brussels sprouts
• I love coke zero
• I want to take train ride vacation
• I want honest politicians
• I want peace
• I want no more wars
• I miss the feeling of being in love
• I miss being in love

So, what’s on your list…

Everyone needs help with something at some point in their lives; brave and courageous individuals seek and ask for help. Talking to someone does not make you weak. You matter and I matter, God loved us!

https://988lifeline.org/talk-to-someone-now/

• National Depression Hotline at (866) 629-4564

• Veterans Crisis Line Text 838255

• Lifeline Options For Deaf + Hard of Hearing For TTY Users: Use your preferred relay service or dial 711 then 988.

• Línea de Prevención del Suicidio y Crisis 1-888-628-9454

• Disaster Distress Helpline Call or Text 1-800-985-5990

In a world 🌍 where you can be anything, BE YOURSELF! There’s no one quite like you in the world. 🌎 Shine Bright ☀️ 🌏

Friends, thank you for taking time out of your day to visit my blog. I am blessed with wonderful people in my life and I am thankful for my internet blogger friends. God bless you, everyone!

~Charlotte, Seeker of Hope — Psalm 62:5

References:

• https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1Cor.13.12&version=NIV

• https://www.merriam-webster.com/

• https://988lifeline.org/talk-to-someone-now/

• https://mailchi.mp/abbeyofthearts/daily-nourishment-from-abbey-of-the-arts-may16-2023?e=128ba1455f

A PICTURE AND A POEM: BLANKET

(Today’s poem was inspired by this prayer blanket, lovingly fringed together by a few friends of Holy Trinity Lutheran Church and given to me during …

A PICTURE AND A POEM: BLANKET

April 28th, 2023

Hello ~

It is good to write and share with you, my friends and family. I have been resistant to writing for some time now, the ideas and topics are simply waiting for me to “be still.” I need to embrace the words that are waiting to be released.

Recently, I spoken with a friend about being more disciplined with my boundaries, my writing and my devotions. As my friend responded, she ask for clarification of “disciplined” my response was to be more consistent in accomplishing them. There’s not a day that goes by that I am not aware of God, I am thankful for all His blessings. I read books by authors who share their faith and relate life stories using scripture references. My theology has deepened through books where the author is authentic and honest. I am currently reading, “The Genesis Trilogy” by Madeleine L’Engle and it is amazing. I love a phrase that she uses often when describing her work, “I am not a Christian author, I am a Christian, who writes.” I love that! There’s absolutely nothing wrong with being a Christian author, but in reality it does limit one’s audience, by definition.

Yesterday, I began using a new daily devotional book called, “A Woman After God’s Own Heart” by Elizabeth George. My very dear friend, Nancy gave me this as a gift.

God’s timing is always on time.

Each of us have personal battles we often fight alone. The alone part is a choice, I know this and yet I still often fight alone. The stigma that to ask for help is real, as if asking is a sign of defeat. None of us ever have to fight alone, God is with us. “Note to self/remember this!”

The first devotion I read was called, “Stop Complaining” now that’s timing!

The Apostle Paul writes in Philippians 4:11-13 “Not that I am referring to being in need; for I have learned to be content with whatever I have. I know what it is to have little, and I know what it is to have plenty. In any and all circumstances I have learned the secret of being well-fed and of going hungry, of having plenty and of being in need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me.”

Then tonight I read Psalm 37 and it felt like the words of David were speaking directly to my heart. Lately, I have found myself frustrated with just about everything. It is unhealthy to keep such toxic thoughts and feeling bottled up, they need healthy release. I’ve learned over the years change is hard but necessary. I know my frustration will not all leave me at once, humans can be very stubborn. Baby steps, so I will continue my devotions, read my Bible, listen to my audible books and begin to write again. Practice being still and listening for God’s voice. “Patience and Trusting.”

I also want to say a special thank you to three of my favorite bloggers, please check their sites out for yourself. When I see a new post from these women, I smile 😊

http://growingupsideways.blog/

https://janbeek.blog/

http://simplysoulsearching.com/

Psalm 37 (NRSVCE)

Do not fret because of the wicked; do not be envious of wrongdoers, for they will soon fade like the grass, and wither like the green herb.

Trust in the Lord, and do good; so you will live in the land, and enjoy security.

Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act.

He will make your vindication shine like the light, and the justice of your cause like the noonday.

Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him; do not fret over those who prosper in their way, over those who carry out evil devices.

Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath.

Do not fret—it leads only to evil.

For the wicked shall be cut off, but those who wait for the Lord shall inherit the land.

Yet a little while, and the wicked will be no more; though you look diligently for their place, they will not be there.

But the meek shall inherit the land, and delight themselves in abundant prosperity.

The wicked plot against the righteous, and gnash their teeth at them; but the Lord laughs at the wicked, for he sees that their day is coming.

The wicked draw the sword and bend their bows to bring down the poor and needy, to kill those who walk uprightly; their sword shall enter their own heart, and their bows shall be broken.

Better is a little that the righteous person has than the abundance of many wicked.

For the arms of the wicked shall be broken, but the Lord upholds the righteous.

The Lord knows the days of the blameless, and their heritage will abide forever; they are not put to shame in evil times, in the days of famine they have abundance.

But the wicked perish,and the enemies of the Lord are like the glory of the pastures; they vanish—like smoke they vanish away.

The wicked borrow, and do not pay back, but the righteous are generous and keep giving; for those blessed by the Lord shall inherit the land, but those cursed by him shall be cut off.

Our steps are made firm by the Lord, when he delights in our way; though we stumble, we shall not fall headlong, for the Lord holds us by the hand.

I have been young, and now am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread.

They are ever giving liberally and lending, and their children become a blessing.

Depart from evil, and do good; so you shall abide forever.

For the Lord loves justice; he will not forsake his faithful ones.

The righteous shall be kept safe forever, but the children of the wicked shall be cut off.

The righteous shall inherit the land, and live in it forever.

The mouths of the righteous utter wisdom, and their tongues speak justice.

The law of their God is in their hearts; their steps do not slip.

The wicked watch for the righteous, and seek to kill them.

The Lord will not abandon them to their power, or let them be condemned when they are brought to trial.

Wait for the Lord, and keep to his way, and he will exalt you to inherit the land; you will look on the destruction of the wicked.

I have seen the wicked oppressing, and towering like a cedar of Lebanon.

Again I passed by, and they were no more; though I sought them, they could not be found.

Mark the blameless, and behold the upright, for there is posterity for the peaceable.

But transgressors shall be altogether destroyed; the posterity of the wicked shall be cut off.

The salvation of the righteous is from the Lord; he is their refuge in the time of trouble.

The Lord helps them and rescues them; he rescues them from the wicked, and saves them, because they take refuge in him.

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~Charlotte, Seeker of Hope — Psalm 62:5